Standard greeting.
Trying to make myself sound very interesting and honest in hopes that someone will take notice. Trying to show myself as intellectual yet with a sense of humor. Enter joke here. Trying to say that I'm both sensitive and a "man" at the same time. Boring retelling of something I found entertaining about today or with life in general.

A new day, and I waltz along through the world. I'm amazed, I'm disappointed, I'm enlightened, I'm as dumb as an Ox (no offense to Ox enthusists), I'm elegant, I'm clumsy, I'm in love with the world, I'm cold and brittle and wish to shut myself away... and that's just my first 20 minutes.

I feel that I'm finally being thrust into the new world. I've seen several new movies, and have enjoyed most of them. I'm getting a new cell phone (Oh fucking God), and I've been interacting with a lot more people (parties and such). Is this a good thing? Whether it is or not, I think I'm feeling good about it.

I'm Super! Thanx for asking!
Only a month left until the holiday season is over!
It's like the coming of Jaysus, only better!
Fuck these stupid holidays and their empty, worthless existence.
I'm just happy with a day off, a bottle of bailey's to go with my morning coffee, my electric blanket, and a small cow that I can hunt and eat raw (the last one is probably never going to happen, and well enough that it doesn't).

I think I need to be more active in my day to day life. Maybe paint some more, or try to write a novel. Maybe borrow a video camera and make a short horror film. Anything really, I've become too content in doing really nothing except work.
Maybe doing something would respark my interest in finding a girl. I've almost given up lately since the only girls I know are my co-workers, and it is a bad idea to date co-workers.
Maybe halloween will bring good tidings.

I really starting to hate this shit.
Once again I've been pulled into another dramatic situation involving another guy I know trying to commit suicide. The asshole calls up to say "I love you, and by the way, I just swallowed all of my prescription drugs, bye."

I already have to deal with my own depression, my best friend dealing with depression because he stayed in the closet for too long, and my other friend seeing a shrink for his own depression.

NO MORE!!!

No one is allowed to try and kill themselves around me anymore goddammit!!

Just moved into a new apartment last week. It's much better than a quad, and in walking distance to Market of Choice (sort of like Trader Joe's only less pretenious).
Also got to see Neko Case last night. If I believed in them, I would have sorn that she was an angel who had answered a prayer. But since I don't, she put on a great show with just the right songs. It made me happy.
Can't wait to see A Scanner Darkely, been waiting for too long already

I got a MAJOR work out last night.
Went to see Lyrics Born, and that man would not quit until we all got down into a boogie and screamed our throats raw.
Awesome show!!
Live band and everything.
Spent all day hiding in the back room at work drinking coffee (sweet sweet black death), making fun of the new releases (I think we have a winner: Bolton does Sinatra! HAHAHA), and generally hating people (stop calling or I'll KILL YOU... thru the phone!!).

I would already be asleep by now, but I noticed that Reagan had a new set, and really, who could resist??

Good night/afternoon/whatever.

Been watching the Ken Burn's Jazz series. So many guys I gotta buy now... dammit! Jazz is too awesome.

I come to a realization that since I've never had faith (even as a child in sunday school I would think, what bullshit!)
I've come to find faith/hope/whatever in the music I listen to. It's the closest to any kind of "rapture" I've ever felt, and the release of the new Tool album has driven the point home.
Only a few bands, a few albums, a few fleeting moments in a chord change, can work their way into both my heart and mind. They make me feel high without any drug, and it's the best kind.

Can't wait for my vacation next month, get to see friends and family and lots of free food!!
I've only ever been able to connect with a few people in Eugene, and over half of them either I've alienated, or they have alienated me. Too lonely around here. It'll be nice to see those that I consider true friends.

I think I need medication or something...
I was doing good for awhile, but right now I'm either depressed or very very aggitated by people.
I had to run into the back room at work today so that I wouldn't scream obsenities at those I considered stupid (which were many). Maybe I should smoke more pot.

my internet is a fickle little thing.
sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.
Been an exciting couple of weeks, what with taking a guy to the psych ward at the hospital for suicide watch, my best friend coming out of the closet (I'm sooo proud), and having massive insomnia (a spent many sleepless nights sewing buttons).
So, yeah...
the dresden dolls rule.