After a few weeks battling away manflu, I'm can finally downgrade my condition to heavy cold. I've taken the day off as my reward though - I worked while ill because I had to, and that's not especially conjustive to getting better.

In general, however, things are pretty good. I've come out of a fairly lengthy spell of depression so feel considerably lighter. It coincided with a perfect storm of illness and friends bringing their own troubles to my door so their were times when life got pretty dark. Hopefully the spring light will make life easier for all of us.

My writing has suffered during this period, but that's fine because its a hobby and I no longer feel the need to rush. I've enjoyed the company of new friends in 2013, and am thrilled to have people texting and ringing me for reasons beyoind simply needing a person to talk to so they don't feel as if they're talking to themself.

I miss my friends abroad though, and one in particular I miss a lot - though I'm pleased I can put my feelings for her in a box to take out and enjoy once in a while without letting them consume my every waking thought. Whilst I'm not used to being pragmatic about love, I think its healthier for me. It was suggested I burn my copy of Amelie, but as my landlady has it on VHS, she will always be in this house no matter how we might try and destroy her.

With this in mind, I'm no longer quite so preoccupied with being in a relationship. There are many spectacular women in the world, but I'm not going to connect with everyone in the same way or in a way that will lead to a long-term love. Though it will be hard for me given my assumptions about how people perceive me, I am going to be open to the possibility of more casual encounters than I have been. I miss sex, and I miss closeness, but I've got a pretty damn good life going on. Maybe I should try fitting the sex into that life rather than feel the need to recondition...

After a few weeks battling away manflu, I'm can finally downgrade my condition to heavy cold. I've taken the day off as my reward though - I worked while ill because I had to, and that's not especially conjustive to getting better.

In general, however, things are pretty good. I've come out of a fairly lengthy spell of depression so feel considerably lighter. It coincided with a perfect storm of illness and friends bringing their own troubles to my door so their were times when life got pretty dark. Hopefully the spring light will make life easier for all of us.

My writing has suffered during this period, but that's fine because its a hobby and I no longer feel the need to rush. I've enjoyed the company of new friends in 2013, and am thrilled to have people texting and ringing me for reasons beyoind simply needing a person to talk to so they don't feel as if they're talking to themself.

I miss my friends abroad though, and one in particular I miss a lot - though I'm pleased I can put my feelings for her in a box to take out and enjoy once in a while without letting them consume my every waking thought. Whilst I'm not used to being pragmatic about love, I think its healthier for me. It was suggested I burn my copy of Amelie, but as my landlady has it on VHS, she will always be in this house no matter how we might try and destroy her.

With this in mind, I'm no longer quite so preoccupied with being in a relationship. There are many spectacular women in the world, but I'm not going to connect with everyone in the same way or in a way that will lead to a long-term love. Though it will be hard for me given my assumptions about how people perceive me, I am going to be open to the possibility of more casual encounters than I have been. I miss sex, and I miss closeness, but I've got a pretty damn good life going on. Maybe I should try fitting the sex into that life rather than feel the need to recondition my existence in the pursuit of something deeper and more ellusive. I don't think I need to compromise my principles (I won't compromise my principles) but I do enough for others that perhaps I can open myself up to the possibility of fun for myself. Will anything occur because of this? Probably not, but it is still a step forward.

I think.