DncsWthAngls's May 05, 2009 blog

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MAY 5, 2009 @ 02:50 PM

Hmmm.

I should probably just admit this and get it over with...

Posting pictures on here is exceptionally difficult for me. I guess you could say I'm using SG as a theraputic way to move past my body-image issues. So the comments you all leave me really are appreciated--more than you might think--though I still doubt the sincerity of some of them at times, NOT because of the person commenting, but because of my own self-doubt. I am a perfectionist after all, and when I do not see perfection in myself, I feel like anything less is--well--undesireable at best, disgusting and/or worthless at worst.

I blame the media

I don't want pity or anything of the sort; that's not why I'm saying this. It's just that a few of you already know some of this, and a few others seem to suspect as much, so I figure I'd just come right out and say it plainly.

I'm not trying to hid anything, just grow as a person and move beyond it. It's limiting and obsurd to care so much about unreached "perfection."

There is much I understand intellectually, but even with all of that it's difficult to convince my emotion and insecurity. I fight with my illogical side constantly. I'm stubborn at times, which is rather frustrating

So, I'm actively trying to work on it. Obviously, or I wouldn't even be posting anything on here. Many of the images I have put up I actually dislike greatly...

Anyway, enough of this. Sorry to bother you with it; just wanted the curious ones to know up front.

Thanks everyone for your support and kindnesses. I cannot express my gratitude.

<3

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Abracadabra4

Tampa, FL

December 2007

MAY 05, 2009 03:04 PM

MattGarvin

New Orleans, LA

October 2008

MAY 05, 2009 04:38 PM

Yes, I would agree.. anything with Batman does kick ass

Guitarpicker

Las Vegas, NV

November 2006

MAY 05, 2009 05:10 PM

Well I don't think you have anything to worry about, I think you're gorgeous. It doesn't take a fool to see that! I think you have what every woman wants: natural beauty! You can't buy that!

Bob

SUICIDEGIRL

California, USA

MAY 05, 2009 08:18 PM

Yea, I'm a fan of Jackman

...but if you're a die-hard comic geek the movie is pretty painful to watch.

If not, it is a Jackman-tastic romp.

And,arigatou gozaimasu!!!

Tarion

SUICIDEGIRL

South Africa

MAY 06, 2009 09:35 AM

Thanks
Yeah decided to go for slightly more hardcore make-up this time and I think it worked quite well

MarcR

United Kingdom

April 2005

MAY 06, 2009 10:06 AM

I think everyone is body conscious, the people with so-called perfect bodies more so and you're right, it's the media to blame.

One of my favourite lines in Fight Club is when Tyler and the Narrator get on the bus and he points at the Calvin Kline ad and says "Is that what a real man looks like?"

Also, you have nothing to worry about, you look fantastic

rayrosa

I'm lost

April 2006

MAY 06, 2009 11:03 AM

All of us are insecure with our body and image to one extent or another. I think that is is great that you have decided to actively work on this issue. I can't think of anyone I know that has the guts to put herself out there the way you have. I think it is a healthy thing to take this issue head on and you should be commended for your efforts.

MarcR

United Kingdom

April 2005

MAY 06, 2009 01:21 PM

Believe me, you have nothing to worry about.

Every image you see in magazines or on TV is designed with one purpose, to make you jealous, to make you want to be that image, wear those clothes, it's a con, the people in those images are as shallow as the paper they're printed on.

It's a very easy trap to fall into, even for us guys, which is why I don't read/look at mens fashion/health magazines. I don't need manicured nails and the latest face cream to know who I am. I don't have the time to spend the hours in a gym to get those perfect abs, Nature cursed me with a receding hairline at an early age so I buzz it every few days with a clipper so don't need hair products that could single handedly cause a major ecological disaster if the New York fashion week mysteriously fell into the Atlantic ocean. It's very easy for me to say these things so take them at face value, just be happy with who you are and who you can be.

I recently started trying to lose weight, lost 30 pounds in two months and feel better about myself, I didn't do it to conform to societies ideal, but for myself.

At the end of the day you are you, and that is as far as I'm concerned all a person needs to be.