mom and gary(step-dad) always smoked and that was no big deal. they were so nice when they were stoned.
So i was about 8, playing G.I.Joe in my backyard with my friend Paul (also 8). we found a bag of hypodermic needles buried under a berry bush. we thought it was the coolest thing. like in the movies. We ran inside to show my Mom and she was very surprised. she took the bag and that was it. i never saw the bag again and if i asked about it she'd say she couldn't remember it or change the subject. "David, HAha!(angry laugh) i've had a hard day. Why don't you give me a break?" stuff like that, but it worked. she always got her way, otherwise she might start crying if she wasn't drunk or stoned. she was mostly a pleasant alcoholic. if i wanted something or a favor i would wait till around 6 or 7 at night and i almost always find her happily drunk.
so years later, i'm about 12 and my sister Michelle is around 9 we're spending some summer vacation at our Aunt Della's, my mom's sister. Mom and Dad said they wanted a vacation from us.
a couple weeks go by and michelle tells me what's really going on. she found out from della that mom and gary decided to quit "some drugs" cold-turkey. i'm like, alright, thinking they were trying to quit pot or drinking. i didn't know. michelle was upset because she found out we might have to stay with della. my mom asked della if she could take care of us while they kicked their habit. della said she would. this freaked me out a little too. i didn't want to change schools and lose my friends, especially paul. i didn't really take it serious til i heard it from my aunt. i was sick of mom and dad's temper and weird mood swings. they never beat us, but most of the time there was this rivalry mood between gary and i. i hated it. he was always proving that he was better than me at everything. typical, but still miserable. and mom was usually in extreme moods. really nice and loving, or deeply sad and crying, HAPPY or just fucking angry...
So i was about 8, playing G.I.Joe in my backyard with my friend Paul (also 8). we found a bag of hypodermic needles buried under a berry bush. we thought it was the coolest thing. like in the movies. We ran inside to show my Mom and she was very surprised. she took the bag and that was it. i never saw the bag again and if i asked about it she'd say she couldn't remember it or change the subject. "David, HAha!(angry laugh) i've had a hard day. Why don't you give me a break?" stuff like that, but it worked. she always got her way, otherwise she might start crying if she wasn't drunk or stoned. she was mostly a pleasant alcoholic. if i wanted something or a favor i would wait till around 6 or 7 at night and i almost always find her happily drunk.
so years later, i'm about 12 and my sister Michelle is around 9 we're spending some summer vacation at our Aunt Della's, my mom's sister. Mom and Dad said they wanted a vacation from us.
a couple weeks go by and michelle tells me what's really going on. she found out from della that mom and gary decided to quit "some drugs" cold-turkey. i'm like, alright, thinking they were trying to quit pot or drinking. i didn't know. michelle was upset because she found out we might have to stay with della. my mom asked della if she could take care of us while they kicked their habit. della said she would. this freaked me out a little too. i didn't want to change schools and lose my friends, especially paul. i didn't really take it serious til i heard it from my aunt. i was sick of mom and dad's temper and weird mood swings. they never beat us, but most of the time there was this rivalry mood between gary and i. i hated it. he was always proving that he was better than me at everything. typical, but still miserable. and mom was usually in extreme moods. really nice and loving, or deeply sad and crying, HAPPY or just fucking angry...
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