Well it's that time of year again and I'm excited! Yes this is the day that I look forward to most of the year. I didn't expect myself to have so much fun this year with all that has transpired but I surprise myself, yes I did. I want to thank by best buddy in the whole world of worlds, THANK YOU!Thank you for everything. Hope you feel better today. So I got dress up last night, I was going to go to a party but I didn't end up going to that one because my best friend is ill. I really hope she feels better today. But I did dress up, I guess it was a rehearsal dress up for today lol. Although I was having fun I did end up going to a party that was neat. I didn't know anybody but besides my two friends but who cares I was out and about. So yeah I had my Halloween Preview this past night. I took some pictures of me as a my Halloween Costume, A vampire lol! Trick r' Treat!
Hell-O Ghouls and Boules!
Vampiric Yawn!
Hello mother dear...(o,..,o)
Who's Sleeping in my Coffin, Again? I am the worst Vampire.
Shiny red Cape...
I'm just Pissed...HISS!
Blah, I bid you welcome...come join us
Yes even the lord of darkness can geek out on his collection lol.
Hell-O Ghouls and Boules!
Vampiric Yawn!
Hello mother dear...(o,..,o)
Who's Sleeping in my Coffin, Again? I am the worst Vampire.
Shiny red Cape...
I'm just Pissed...HISS!
Blah, I bid you welcome...come join us
Yes even the lord of darkness can geek out on his collection lol.
So I’ve been thinking about my life, well the life that I had. Everything is changed, I assume not only for me but for a lot of people out there. It’s a rough time, jobs are hard to come by, money is tight and food is less then nutritional and more of an ends to meet. I mean unless you’re willing to pay for real unprocessed food then good for you. Although I would like to talk about how crummy times are right now I'm not going to.
What I want to write about is if everything is either bad or poor then what do we have to turn to for real comfort? I mean TV is great but it gets tiresome as do many other things. No, what we have as humans is each other. Why can’t that be enough? I’m not saying living on love and all that hippie ideas, even though I am a dreamer.
But realistically I wouldn’t have mind being in a relationship where, both my partner and I go about are daily duties and responsibilities then come home and spend time with each other. I actually I did have this. I was in love and I think she loved me also. Though we didn’t have the most exciting life if you looked at us through a looking glass (thank you Lewis Carroll) we were IN LOVE.
Each day was wonderful, magical and worth living. I was hers and she was mine. I couldn’t wait to see her everyday and it would excite me to know that I would be seeing my love. We travel all around are town and city. Took small trips and enjoyed new and familiar foods. It’s strange because we both found each other at our former work place and we were both laid off at that same job but at different times. It was around the time of the recession and although we both were receiving unemployment and looking for new jobs (that never came) we had so much fun just living. No pressure to get married or to have children or other society’s pressures. We just lived. We were both in are own different world at that time I guess. For almost 4 years we where in total bliss then one day she decided that she wanted out and that nothing could save our relationship. It was a total Conan moment, actually a lot like Conan and NBC.
Well I won’t go into any specific details but she found a decent job around mid 09 and I still was searching. Everything thing seemed ok but I should have known that something was becoming unhinged and disjointed. She was able to get me some work at that job of hers but it was very brief and only temporary, which was nice. But around mid Nov of 09 to Feb 10 there was something strange. She was not her usual self around me. I kept asking her to tell me what was bothering her and she would say that it was just, her being tired from work. Or she would say that it’s nothing major just family issues that I didn’t need to really worry. I understand but yet, she was a bad liar. I knew something was wrong. I didn’t know exactly what was really wrong but I should have. In late Dec of last year she kept mentioning about an old high school ex that was leaving to the army or whatever. Her friends where going to throw a party for him and she told me that he still has feelings for her but she didn’t at all. They were barely even a real couple in high school. Although she did want to go to that party and because like a dumbnut I said “go ahead or If you want me to go I will”. She didn’t and she was even sadder. Please remember I was blinded for my love for her. She seemed down and all I wanted was for her to be happy.
Here is the kicker. I was honest, loyal and trustworthy to her, maybe to a fault in our whole time together. I’m not saying this for applause or a pat on the back, it just who I am. I’ve been in a couple of long term relationships but I really trusted this girl with all my heart and soul. We both trusted each other; well that’s what I thought. Then from mid Jan to march of this year we had the silent fight and it was insane because I thought I did something wrong. No, I should have known that she just wanted out and that either she was listening to her co-workers to dump me and get with a army guy with some sort of a carrier. I’ll admit it, I’m not the best looking guy and have plenty of flaws but they are things that can be worked at.
The silent fight came with not wanting to hold my hand or kiss me or give me hugs. There was barley any sex and if there was she was the one that advocated protection. This was a red flag because I’m usually the one that wants and always uses protection. But over the course of our relationship I trusted her. I was so loyal to her like a puppy to a new owner. Then on March 1 she wanted the talk. I wanted the talk to but not over the phone. It happened, the harsh cold talk. Yet she wanted to me to end things. I told that this isn’t right. We should sit down next to each other and discuss about are future before just giving up from our problems. Nope, she still insisted that it was a family/carrier issue with me and she couldn’t see how it would work out. I said we could make it work if we give it a try. That’s the only way people get through hard times. Nope, she wanted out. So I told her to she had to end it. She of course did.
As the months passed by, I was destroyed. I would send her an email message once a month on how we could fix things if she wanted to talk. From March to May I would send her only one message per month but I figured that she didn’t want me in her life. I went away for a bit and since I didn’t have a face book account I asked one of my friends if we could find her. We did. Her picture on Facebook was with her new man lol, the ex who is in the army. The whole point is, why? Why did it have to happen this way? If she could have just been honest I said I don’t want to be in this relationship anymore it would have made things much smoother. I’ve would have been hurt but not as long as I have been now.
So I question loyalty which is defined as
“1.The state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations.
2. A feeling or attitude of devoted attachment and affection.”
And I question Honesty which is defined as
“1. The quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness.
2. Truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness.
3. Freedom from deceit or fraud.”
Does it matter anymore? I mean honest and loyalty. Because I think I’m done with relationships. You put your heart and soul and you end up being bled drained. I don’t know maybe I just have so much hope and trust that it bites me in the ass. I’m so tired of this. Yeah it sounds like I’m winning about how she deceived me. Yes that might be true. But it’s going to be 7 months; 5 months of those I gave her the benefit of doubt.
It’s sad because as much as I love women, I have to stay away from them. I can only be friends with women. Sex is overrated so I can deal without it. I mean I love it (Sex) but I’m not going to risk my feelings anymore. I’ve been abstinent when I was 19 to 24 so I can do it again. Maybe I’m selfish but I don’t see any reasons why I would want to go back through a wonderful relationship then to have it turn awful. I miss her but at the same time I don’t know her. In my opinion it’s the ultimate betrayal. At least I’m still around, which I thought I wouldn't have been when all of this happened. But that’s all I have to say at this time.
Bye.
This was us, now it's gone
What I want to write about is if everything is either bad or poor then what do we have to turn to for real comfort? I mean TV is great but it gets tiresome as do many other things. No, what we have as humans is each other. Why can’t that be enough? I’m not saying living on love and all that hippie ideas, even though I am a dreamer.
But realistically I wouldn’t have mind being in a relationship where, both my partner and I go about are daily duties and responsibilities then come home and spend time with each other. I actually I did have this. I was in love and I think she loved me also. Though we didn’t have the most exciting life if you looked at us through a looking glass (thank you Lewis Carroll) we were IN LOVE.
Each day was wonderful, magical and worth living. I was hers and she was mine. I couldn’t wait to see her everyday and it would excite me to know that I would be seeing my love. We travel all around are town and city. Took small trips and enjoyed new and familiar foods. It’s strange because we both found each other at our former work place and we were both laid off at that same job but at different times. It was around the time of the recession and although we both were receiving unemployment and looking for new jobs (that never came) we had so much fun just living. No pressure to get married or to have children or other society’s pressures. We just lived. We were both in are own different world at that time I guess. For almost 4 years we where in total bliss then one day she decided that she wanted out and that nothing could save our relationship. It was a total Conan moment, actually a lot like Conan and NBC.
Well I won’t go into any specific details but she found a decent job around mid 09 and I still was searching. Everything thing seemed ok but I should have known that something was becoming unhinged and disjointed. She was able to get me some work at that job of hers but it was very brief and only temporary, which was nice. But around mid Nov of 09 to Feb 10 there was something strange. She was not her usual self around me. I kept asking her to tell me what was bothering her and she would say that it was just, her being tired from work. Or she would say that it’s nothing major just family issues that I didn’t need to really worry. I understand but yet, she was a bad liar. I knew something was wrong. I didn’t know exactly what was really wrong but I should have. In late Dec of last year she kept mentioning about an old high school ex that was leaving to the army or whatever. Her friends where going to throw a party for him and she told me that he still has feelings for her but she didn’t at all. They were barely even a real couple in high school. Although she did want to go to that party and because like a dumbnut I said “go ahead or If you want me to go I will”. She didn’t and she was even sadder. Please remember I was blinded for my love for her. She seemed down and all I wanted was for her to be happy.
Here is the kicker. I was honest, loyal and trustworthy to her, maybe to a fault in our whole time together. I’m not saying this for applause or a pat on the back, it just who I am. I’ve been in a couple of long term relationships but I really trusted this girl with all my heart and soul. We both trusted each other; well that’s what I thought. Then from mid Jan to march of this year we had the silent fight and it was insane because I thought I did something wrong. No, I should have known that she just wanted out and that either she was listening to her co-workers to dump me and get with a army guy with some sort of a carrier. I’ll admit it, I’m not the best looking guy and have plenty of flaws but they are things that can be worked at.
The silent fight came with not wanting to hold my hand or kiss me or give me hugs. There was barley any sex and if there was she was the one that advocated protection. This was a red flag because I’m usually the one that wants and always uses protection. But over the course of our relationship I trusted her. I was so loyal to her like a puppy to a new owner. Then on March 1 she wanted the talk. I wanted the talk to but not over the phone. It happened, the harsh cold talk. Yet she wanted to me to end things. I told that this isn’t right. We should sit down next to each other and discuss about are future before just giving up from our problems. Nope, she still insisted that it was a family/carrier issue with me and she couldn’t see how it would work out. I said we could make it work if we give it a try. That’s the only way people get through hard times. Nope, she wanted out. So I told her to she had to end it. She of course did.
As the months passed by, I was destroyed. I would send her an email message once a month on how we could fix things if she wanted to talk. From March to May I would send her only one message per month but I figured that she didn’t want me in her life. I went away for a bit and since I didn’t have a face book account I asked one of my friends if we could find her. We did. Her picture on Facebook was with her new man lol, the ex who is in the army. The whole point is, why? Why did it have to happen this way? If she could have just been honest I said I don’t want to be in this relationship anymore it would have made things much smoother. I’ve would have been hurt but not as long as I have been now.
So I question loyalty which is defined as
“1.The state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations.
2. A feeling or attitude of devoted attachment and affection.”
And I question Honesty which is defined as
“1. The quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness.
2. Truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness.
3. Freedom from deceit or fraud.”
Does it matter anymore? I mean honest and loyalty. Because I think I’m done with relationships. You put your heart and soul and you end up being bled drained. I don’t know maybe I just have so much hope and trust that it bites me in the ass. I’m so tired of this. Yeah it sounds like I’m winning about how she deceived me. Yes that might be true. But it’s going to be 7 months; 5 months of those I gave her the benefit of doubt.
It’s sad because as much as I love women, I have to stay away from them. I can only be friends with women. Sex is overrated so I can deal without it. I mean I love it (Sex) but I’m not going to risk my feelings anymore. I’ve been abstinent when I was 19 to 24 so I can do it again. Maybe I’m selfish but I don’t see any reasons why I would want to go back through a wonderful relationship then to have it turn awful. I miss her but at the same time I don’t know her. In my opinion it’s the ultimate betrayal. At least I’m still around, which I thought I wouldn't have been when all of this happened. But that’s all I have to say at this time.
Bye.
This was us, now it's gone
I'm very sad 
. I'm more so worried right now because my best buddy who has been beside me in the last 7yrs is about to have surgery for a tumor in his tonsil. He is my best buddy but feels more like family to me; his name is Bronson. My pet buddy family member is ill and all I have in my mind is if he will be ok. The vet found a small grape size tumor in the back of his mouth and they say it's not that bad but they won't know for sure until the surgery and the results come back for the lab. I cried today. I cried with my girlfriend and with my best human buddy over the phone. I'm just so sad right now that I don't know what to do. Everyone says he'll be fine or that hopefully everything is not as bad as it seems. Maybe there right and I'm worrying to much but I can't help but not to. I just knew that something was wrong with him. The last couple of weeks he's been really lethargic and he didn't seem at times like himself. He would cough from time to time. I thought it was a cold or some sort of canine flu maybe a hair ball stuck in his throat but I didn't know it would be a tumor, Fuck!!! I'm sorry I'm just upset. Later on today I'm going to spend the whole day because on Friday he's going to have the surgery. I went to Knott's Scary Farm today because I planned it and I needed to escape a little bit. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude but it's really hard. I want to write more and I will later on today but I just needed to let some steam out. If you knew Bronson and some of you do, you know how much of a sweetheart that he is.
Peace, Love.
<3
I love you Bronson.
Here are some pictures of my best buddy
. I'm more so worried right now because my best buddy who has been beside me in the last 7yrs is about to have surgery for a tumor in his tonsil. He is my best buddy but feels more like family to me; his name is Bronson. My pet buddy family member is ill and all I have in my mind is if he will be ok. The vet found a small grape size tumor in the back of his mouth and they say it's not that bad but they won't know for sure until the surgery and the results come back for the lab. I cried today. I cried with my girlfriend and with my best human buddy over the phone. I'm just so sad right now that I don't know what to do. Everyone says he'll be fine or that hopefully everything is not as bad as it seems. Maybe there right and I'm worrying to much but I can't help but not to. I just knew that something was wrong with him. The last couple of weeks he's been really lethargic and he didn't seem at times like himself. He would cough from time to time. I thought it was a cold or some sort of canine flu maybe a hair ball stuck in his throat but I didn't know it would be a tumor, Fuck!!! I'm sorry I'm just upset. Later on today I'm going to spend the whole day because on Friday he's going to have the surgery. I went to Knott's Scary Farm today because I planned it and I needed to escape a little bit. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude but it's really hard. I want to write more and I will later on today but I just needed to let some steam out. If you knew Bronson and some of you do, you know how much of a sweetheart that he is. Peace, Love.
<3
I love you Bronson.
Here are some pictures of my best buddy
I went to the Whiskey in Hollywood on wed Aug 13 to see a band called CREATURE FEATURE. They are really good and I admire them a lot for what they are doing. I love Horror movies, Halloween, and all things scary and creepy. CREATURE FEATURE put all this into an a musical show that just gets my blood boiling for more! XD!!!
I got to meet them and they signed my copy of their CD and I even got to take a picture with them. I don't look very good in these images but eh... lol
A bonus! I got to meet Gris Grimly and he signed the copy of the CD as well oh I'm so so happy now!
An "uncomfortable" fun time with Curtis RX! I look so silly
Erik X Is so funny and I look___ Don't like the way I look in this pic below but whatever, I'm in it so who cares lol
Curtis RX,Erik X and Gris Grimly all signed it YAY!!! XD
I had fun so that's all that matters yay!!!
I got to meet them and they signed my copy of their CD and I even got to take a picture with them. I don't look very good in these images but eh... lol
A bonus! I got to meet Gris Grimly and he signed the copy of the CD as well oh I'm so so happy now!
An "uncomfortable" fun time with Curtis RX! I look so silly
Erik X Is so funny and I look___
Don't like the way I look in this pic below but whatever, I'm in it so who cares lol Curtis RX,Erik X and Gris Grimly all signed it YAY!!! XD
I had fun so that's all that matters yay!!!
What can I say? I went with my friend puppy and she loved it because of Heath Ledger. It's sad, Because there can't ever be another Joker. Sad Face. Heath Ledger was The Joker.
I got a new shirt today and even though I shouldn't have I just had to have it. It's a Joker T - shirt and "yes" it's a girl shirt but I don't care I love it.
I got a new shirt today and even though I shouldn't have I just had to have it. It's a Joker T - shirt and "yes" it's a girl shirt but I don't care I love it.
What do I have to say about this film that hasn't been said yet? Well personally I think it is the best adaption of one of the greatest comic book icons in the last decade. Heck, probably the best film of the year. Plus it's a film that should be a future resource for upcoming comic book adaptations to the sliver screen. Now my favorite character in the comic world is Spider-Man. I love the Spider-Man films but I've always had some issues with the Spider-Man films do to the dialogue and the lack to give Spider-Man more character and personality when he dawns the Spider-Man mask. The late Heath Ledger as the Joker was "Incredible!" for lack of better words . A revelation of what a true artist that Mr. Ledger was as I watched the Dark Knight I completely forgot that Mr. Ledger was in the film. I was convinced that the Joker was a real person personified by an actor who happen to be Mr. Ledger. I watched the Dark Knight yesterday I realized that as far as movies for comic books go, The Dark Knight exceeded in what I thought would be a great film to a masterpiece. I love this film which is now my favorite Comic book adaption and it is followed by Spider-Man 2.
Thank you Mr.
Ledger for your
performance
Even though you are
gone you will be in my thoughts as
well as in the minds of many others.
Thank you Mr.
Ledger for your
performance
Even though you are
gone you will be in my thoughts as
well as in the minds of many others.
So I woke up sat morning, had a good dream and felt rather good, really good. So I took these pictures of me. I'm so silly and such a goof ball ha ha!
Me and my little FullMetal Alchemist!
I can Smile...sometimes
Making sure this is not a dream...duh!
wishing I was asleep again! Ha HA HA!
Me and my little FullMetal Alchemist!
I can Smile...sometimes
Making sure this is not a dream...duh!
wishing I was asleep again! Ha HA HA!
Here are some new pictures of me. Yeah, there kinda old lol but they are the most recent. I need a trim.
Thinking...
Hey! I can Smile! Sort of...
I Love Sushi. To bad I already ate my all of my sashimi before the picture.
My Breakfast, miso soup, rice and green tea..(I was too lazy to heat up some water and make fresh green Tea LOL)
Thinking...
Hey! I can Smile! Sort of...
I Love Sushi. To bad I already ate my all of my sashimi before the picture.
My Breakfast, miso soup, rice and green tea..(I was too lazy to heat up some water and make fresh green Tea LOL)
Not much point to this story but to say that I got really lucky to get a new DS Lite! A black one, YAY! The sad thing was that I had to trade in my old Blue DS for the newer Black DS Lite. Even though I had a white DS lite I always wanted a Black one because they look so sexy!
<br /> So I went into this game store and I found a Black DS Lite for only 60$ and I asked if they could hold it for me for a day so I could trade in my old DS, (which I could get 30$ bucks store credit and just pay the remainder of the price which was 32$). A steal because even the used DS lites are about 100$ or a bit more. Anyways I went to the store the next day and made the transaction. The trade in went wrong because of a mistake but I still got the DS and got my money refunded a week later.
<br /> So when I went to the store the following week a store employee told me that they guy who sold it to them went back. He thought that they were a pond shop and demanded that they were wrong and they sold it at an unfair price and he wanted I guess another DS. In the end they almost had to call the cops on this guy. I lucked out I guess. YAY FOR ME!
Here's me;sad to let go of an old friend.
My new friend! ^_^
My best buddy on the road!(Still love the white one)
And the Two of them lived happily everafter!
<br /> So I went into this game store and I found a Black DS Lite for only 60$ and I asked if they could hold it for me for a day so I could trade in my old DS, (which I could get 30$ bucks store credit and just pay the remainder of the price which was 32$). A steal because even the used DS lites are about 100$ or a bit more. Anyways I went to the store the next day and made the transaction. The trade in went wrong because of a mistake but I still got the DS and got my money refunded a week later.
<br /> So when I went to the store the following week a store employee told me that they guy who sold it to them went back. He thought that they were a pond shop and demanded that they were wrong and they sold it at an unfair price and he wanted I guess another DS. In the end they almost had to call the cops on this guy. I lucked out I guess. YAY FOR ME!
Here's me;sad to let go of an old friend.
My new friend! ^_^
My best buddy on the road!(Still love the white one)
And the Two of them lived happily everafter!
I was supposed to post this on sat but I was lazy. LOL! I really love Resident Evil and This one looks really good. Hopefully it's as good if not better then 4! Even though RE 2 was my favorite story, I think that RE4 was the best at this point.
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