Answers to my previous questions…
1. I like a red lipstick that I have found only at hot topic and on rare occasions. It’s a true bright primary red with small flecks of gold glitter in it; it’s what I like to refer to as my showgirl lipstick.
2. I like the juice boxes that come in huge packs at Sams Club.
3. And fuck no, that’s fucking horrible.

I have to spill the beans I guess… I am very embarrassed. About how unreliable I am. I was kicked out of the musical I was supposed to perform in as a tap dancer this morning. Kicked out and I was the very best dancer in that show. And I swear that is the un-amplified truth and I think everyone knows I have a pretty high dancing ability.

My first semester in college in Seattle I didn’t miss one day of school, the second semester everything started. I started being late. I started not showing up. And ever since then my unreliability has gotten so much worse. Even in stuff that I am dead interested in I am unreliable. Isn’t that like a sign of depression? Seems anymore I can’t do anything. I honestly question the “maybe” of possibly taking an anti-depression medication.

I wonder if honestly that will make me more motivated to keep life going. In high school especially when I was a senior I would never miss work, I was rarely late and I loved being busy. Now I am out of work, always late and never busy. I have lost countless things and it’s no ones fault but mine.

1.Forced to resign from hot topic
2. Couldn’t keep going to the practices at dance team in College because I was never motivated, thus I quit.
3. I Quit Gadzooks to keep from fully fucking them over any longer.
4. Fired from a Henderson County Musical, how pithy.
5. Didn’t stay taking dance classes on two separate occasions.
6. I slacked on getting all the info into Cornish That I needed to get to them last year to re-enroll
7. I never went to my classes at the university when I needed to and thus I am going to have big problems...

Answers to my previous questions…
1. I like a red lipstick that I have found only at hot topic and on rare occasions. It's a true bright primary red with small flecks of gold glitter in it; it's what I like to refer to as my showgirl lipstick.
2. I like the juice boxes that come in huge packs at Sams Club.
3. And fuck no, that's fucking horrible.

I have to spill the beans I guess… I am very embarrassed. About how unreliable I am. I was kicked out of the musical I was supposed to perform in as a tap dancer this morning. Kicked out and I was the very best dancer in that show. And I swear that is the un-amplified truth and I think everyone knows I have a pretty high dancing ability.

My first semester in college in Seattle I didn't miss one day of school, the second semester everything started. I started being late. I started not showing up. And ever since then my unreliability has gotten so much worse. Even in stuff that I am dead interested in I am unreliable. Isn't that like a sign of depression? Seems anymore I can't do anything. I honestly question the "maybe" of possibly taking an anti-depression medication.

I wonder if honestly that will make me more motivated to keep life going. In high school especially when I was a senior I would never miss work, I was rarely late and I loved being busy. Now I am out of work, always late and never busy. I have lost countless things and it's no ones fault but mine.

1.Forced to resign from hot topic
2. Couldn't keep going to the practices at dance team in College because I was never motivated, thus I quit.
3. I Quit Gadzooks to keep from fully fucking them over any longer.
4. Fired from a Henderson County Musical, how pithy.
5. Didn't stay taking dance classes on two separate occasions.
6. I slacked on getting all the info into Cornish That I needed to get to them last year to re-enroll
7. I never went to my classes at the university when I needed to and thus I am going to have big problems getting fin aid when I try to enroll at Cornish this coming year.

I have had the chance to be apart of several awesome things, but on the account of my reliability issues I have failed at accomplishing most of the things I wanted to accomplish when I came back to Evansville from Seattle. Those plans were to be in one of Chris' musicals in Henderson, Take dance lessons, be on a university's dance team, and work in retail again because I used to love it so much.

So James has taught me one thing, and that is to make plans to get rid of unwanted circumstances. So I have to make a plan.

1. I promise to be on time to anything even if it means when I get there I may not look my best or be comfortable because of something I didn't have time to do. This means I will be on time for photo shoots even if I have to bring my make-up case to finish my face or whatever when I get there.
2. I promise to get a regular job to work at least one night a week doing something that I enjoy doing and I will be a reliable employee and I will get to work at the scheduled time.
3. I promise to stop thinking of myself as a victim when it comes to my unreliability. I will fess up to being late for a dumb reason if I am.
4. I will stop spending my money of silly shit and get my bills paid and get the real things I want like an apartment in Seattle, my college bills paid, a new desk top, my car fixed, a membership to the yoga studio, or whatever will help my life in the long run, not curling irons or masses of lingerie, I should only be able to buy those things as rewards for doing the right things.

I am sure there is more and I will post it to make it definite for myself when I think of new things I can do to make myself learn to snap into being more reliable.

These are my plans and if any of you who know me or barely know me at all, if I mess something up and I do something half-assed or not at all, I want you to politely kick me in the ass for being dumb.

I do have another chance though. Next week there is a Museum fundraiser I will be performing in as an animatronic Greek statue. I will be at all of the practices on time and I will complete this "assignment" punctual and gracefully. Thank you.

Questions:
1. When is the last time you have been very unreliable?
2. Who's your favorite swinging chick of the 60's?
3. What's your favorite animal?