age: 30 (Nov 11, 1982)
MEMBER SINCE: January 2012
occupation: Aerospace
sign: Scorpio
most humbling moment: I am humbled every time I crash and burn in my sporadic attempts at romance
crush: Bunny from Lexx (Patricia Zentilli)
gets me hot: Dark hair, dark or very pale skin, large eyes, pointy canine teeth, and wet lips
makes me sad: Social anxiety (mine), shyness (also mine), gods awful music, other peoples drama, that I have to choose between "Video Games" and "Artists" on my profile info
makes me happy: Good music, good company, white russians, mead, moscotto wine, when I stand up to my social anxiety, when girls are flirty with me, getting compliments, people being supportive of me
into: Drawing, guitars, intelligent conversation, learning new things, nerds, being considerate and polite, honesty, Grey Goose, Stolichnaya, Kahlua, creamer, the night sky, candle light, darkness, staying up late, sleeping past noon, a little bit of craziness
i lost my virginity: Later than most, but with no regrets. So many people are unhappy with their first, mine was totally worth it
body mods: Nothing cool like tattoos or piercings...yet, just multiple surgical scars I like to say I scored in a knife fight
I don't understand why my brain is the way it is, why the fight/flight response gets triggered by simple damned one on one conversation with strangers, especially women. For fucks sake, I once had a man run at me with a knife and didn't flinch, and am brave enough to get naked on Suicide Boys for thousands to see, but can't fucking talk to a pretty girl, even one I'm not interested in?? Fuck my life! I keep saying, and swear it's true, that my personality is in almost all ways a cross of all the worst bits of Raj Koothrapoli and Sheldon Cooper from the Big Bang Theory television show.
I am a grown ass man. I am thirty fucking years old. Last I checked, I had an IQ way above average, am still in good health and decent shape, and have heard it from enough people to know I'm definitely not ugly, so why do I have to have this trouble?!
Fuck! Though I'm no fan of the massive pharmaceutical companies, I swear there is a pill somewhere I really need to be taking.