ii had to break out my john coltrane playlist today to keep myself balanced and at peace.
i had a very trying conversation with the mother of my oldest daughter on the way in to work this morning. we've never seen eye to eye on pretty much anything and although i love my daughter to death, her mother has never been one of my favorite people.
my daughter is a creative and unique 12 year old that can be pretty selfish and lazy at times...like most 12 year olds. but she means well and just wants to be loved...like most 12 years old. she gives her mom the blues at times and i really think she plays us against each other...although mostly unintentionally. regardless, i think that my household and living style (which conflicts on various levels with that of her mother) would be more conducive for her complete development. shes a misfit. i am a misfit. only a misfit can raise a misfit.
this morning i reluctantly brought up the issue of having her live with me (as opposed to the regular visits on weekends and holidays) and it was met with the expected level of resistance by her mother. i'm going to visualize the outcome i want in this situation, but its going to take all of my strength to deal with this woman.
if there is any encouragement to draw from, her mom did at least agree to think about and discuss the issue. its a start. in keeping with my new outlook on life, im going to push any negative thoughts about the situation out of my head.
i had a very trying conversation with the mother of my oldest daughter on the way in to work this morning. we've never seen eye to eye on pretty much anything and although i love my daughter to death, her mother has never been one of my favorite people.
my daughter is a creative and unique 12 year old that can be pretty selfish and lazy at times...like most 12 year olds. but she means well and just wants to be loved...like most 12 years old. she gives her mom the blues at times and i really think she plays us against each other...although mostly unintentionally. regardless, i think that my household and living style (which conflicts on various levels with that of her mother) would be more conducive for her complete development. shes a misfit. i am a misfit. only a misfit can raise a misfit.
this morning i reluctantly brought up the issue of having her live with me (as opposed to the regular visits on weekends and holidays) and it was met with the expected level of resistance by her mother. i'm going to visualize the outcome i want in this situation, but its going to take all of my strength to deal with this woman.
if there is any encouragement to draw from, her mom did at least agree to think about and discuss the issue. its a start. in keeping with my new outlook on life, im going to push any negative thoughts about the situation out of my head.