Bad, sad and hard summer..

On July 23 my sister' s boyfriend, Alessandro, died in a car accident leaving this world 21 years after opening eyes for the first time.

On Elba island, he was going to the dock to hide and make a surprise to my sister Mara, she was landing with a friend but she found a big cue on street home.
The cue was for the accident.

In short, he was killed by a woman (still alive, with no harm at all) running at 120 km/h, limit is 30 km/h. She said she didn't brake at all, she putted arms over her head. She got licence one month before, she's almost 40.

City mourning for ten days, two funerals and so on.

I'm not so able to explain the accident in english and btw, i don't feel like doing it right now..

I want only to thank a lot people from Sg who tries to be near to me and my 18 years old sis during these awful summer, with words and warm feelings. Love you.

Also, trying to see at least a couple of things in a positive way you almost realize that that trivial thinks:
-All problems you got becomes small problems.
-Live with people all time. Time you lost, you're gonna miss it. For real.

Here's a pic of him talking to Palcode @ Gasoline, in Milan

Here's him and my sis

I'm almost ok right now, just feeling more loneliness as empathy with my sister. She's not here now, she's with my mom in south of Italy..fortunately she ended high school and she's gonna change all her habit..I hope this could help, too..now, only cynicism.

Here's the pic my sister glued all over cities.



Friends, I miss a lot of you, people I met and people I never met out there, in the street and I hope that if you're on my friend's list we're gonna meet, soon or later.

Grazie all'isoletta Sg Italy, che qualche amicizia la crea, nn fa solo networking e che ogni tanto si ricorda anche del cellulare che pur virtuale, appare così reale.

Cerchiamo di andare "alla grande" Ale..

E' certo un brivido averti qui con me, in volo libero sugli anni andati ormai
e non è facile, dovresti credermi,sentirti qui con me perchè tu non ci sei.
Mi piacerebbe sai, sentirti piangere, anche una lacrima, per pochi attimi.

Toc toc, is there somebody out here?

I miss you.

I've been away from the site for about 2 months being busy for sure but for a lack of something, too....
I missed a lot of new sets of my friends..but don't worry gals! I'm gonna to see everything..

Meanwhile, I tried to fix and go on doing my stuff..masterclass, filmaking and kendo stuff...

Last two big things: I send a project for an exhibition held during the International Design Week here in Milan and they wanted me so you can see down here some pics and a vid..I'm sorry I was not able to tell you in advance..at the opening there was free beer but back to that days I was so damn full...so,
welcome hu-pa:

that's the project:



and here you can find the real one:

I got no free time after this because I went to Far East Film Festival in Udine....oh what a wonderful days...I've seen 28 movies and I got a lot recommendations so stay tuned for next updates!

kisses and bacini ^^

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Ciao Blind, ci sei mancato..bentornato Blind, come stai Blind..ah bene Blind, si ci vediamo presto..ecco magari un aperitivo..si dai così sembriamo veramente amici, amici davvero...ciao Blind ciao

So the year begin and I'm really fuckin busy..more then before.. I'm sorry to all of you for my delay in answering and managing all life..not only over the internet but also in the real world..

This year begun with a lot of meetings from the past and from the future..I feel connected with the world and with my personal history..going through all this various relations I got with people here and there, lovers and friends..

btw time is passing away almost well and I'm happy too see a lot of people from Sg at various parties and thinking about a lot of new project to develop...Starting the Naba Academy where I won a scolarship makes me more busy but in touch with a lot of new people..sometimes sharing same interests..hope to make some special thing with them...

Another big point of these days..it looks like I'm becoming "colder" of what I'm used to be in the past..some says it's only because I'm becoming more mature someone say it's because I'm too busy...don't know..there's something I think it doesn't work properly...but I don't know what exactly is...

- A Fei jing juen - DAYS OF BEING WILD :





Met a lot of girls back at Gasoline at the party with Manko as she came back in Italy..the italian Sg's rock the Gasoline butt out! See Yuki , Dalila , Jin , Erzsebet performing:



after this party I went to see precious Tiffany live in Modena, I was really happy to see her performing



See the pics in my folder asap!

btw...I miss love,

actually.

Back from Carribean to cold shores of Milan...here some pics just to sneak inside..

Spending these days managing a lot of stuff, seeing old loves, closing doors and open the next..

I miss you on Sg since I wasn't so much around here during the last 2 months..

Btw, being on a cruise sucks!! At the end you don't see anything of the places you visit and it's so disgusting to waste all the food they waste....

At the end me and my sis got some fun but if I had to pay I would have choose a total different holiday......
nevertheless, it recharges a little the batteries..

Thank you for the congrats for my grad, I appreciate!

No one guess my holiday place, but a kiss goes to Rys as she answered Iceland (!) and a friendly headbump goes to Palcode who cheated!!

see ya guys and rock this year!

GOT IT!



Milan University traditions....





More pics soon as people send me...

and now...party time!

30 DECEMBER UPDATE ! ! ! !

Let's game! Find BlindSamurai...

My parents ask me to join them on holidays in a place I'll never afford alone these days..I'm going for sure...where?

The first of you finds out WIN a 2-0-0-7 present straight from me..

little hint: seaside!

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Superconcorso trova Blind! vacanza aggrattise con i miei genitori di quelle che mi vergogno a dirlo...dove sarò domani?
Il primo che indovina si becca un premio ancora da decidere.. !

Su dai!!



oh well...btw..Rock this 2007!!!!!

Back from the party!! Lovely time, ask me or join SgItaly for knowing how to download the pics!!
enjoy!

I will be, or try to be, out for 15 days deeply concentrate for ending my essay..I had to write 150 pages yet.....send me so cool and good energy..because just these Candies are not enough...

here's previews from the fun we had..thanx to Albertine for managing everything and to Manko, Yuki and Pill for performing...and to everyone was there, too!








wish me luck!

Update: what the hell is this profile!!..no time to customize it!!

ENGLISH at the bottom!!

Scusate per l'ultima caduta di tono...purtroppo sn così preso che in questi gg agisco di impulso, "restituisco a questa conversazione un luogo che la metta al sicuro da considerazioni superficiali, esterne e pertanto invadenti ed inopportune."
Per quanto, ho apprezzato le vostre manifestazioni d'amicizia!

mangio una di queste e torno a laurà!




Sorry for the mess of the last post...btw love to you all, everyone replies and the one's didn't.
Going to do a lot of things these days due to my graduation..don't have time to spend over bullshits. Gonna eat a candy from the pic-those of you know what I'm talking about..yes give me kudos! - and back to writing!

O-kisu!

I'm sorry for this boring post..it'll be only in italian just because I don't have time to translate..it's an "against me" letter from my former no more ex-girlfriend who probably get angry reading what I wrote here. She ask me to put this letter here in a "public" place. It's not such a much smart move, since here I'm at home. Btw if someone of you is REALLY interested (ahah) I'll translate, just ask me.

Allora, non ho nessun problema a far leggere quello che mi viene scritto se non che bisognerebbe rendersi conto che in questo caso vengono veramente rese pubbliche determinate cose, stupidamente tra l'altro. Btw, ho piena fiducia in chi mi conosce o in chi sta imparando a conoscermi, sempre che leggerà quello che c'è scritto di seguito.
D'altronde, qui, gioco in casa...

hmmm è che sono poco grind, sono ancora troppo buono.....

A presto per nuove più allegre ma guarda in fondo per delle sCHIVA pics!!

Sorry for not using spoiler utility! I need it to be clear.

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La mia risposta:

Era uno sfogo necessario, spiace che tu te lo viva così.

Evito anche di risponderti confutando punto per punto visto che non concordo quasi con nulla.

Non è una mossa intelligente quella di pubblicare tutto. Visto che insisti, faccio anche girare una mail per chi il journal non lo legge.
A chi mi conosce davvero non farà nè caldo nè freddo.

Un pò mi dispiace solo di non essere stato un pò più diretto e in un certo senso, più cattivo, per quanto pare che la situazione non fosse palese solo per te.
Devo ancora peggiorarmi.

Ah, visto che la pedanteria mi contraddistingue, hai un bel pò di cose mie da restituire.


La sua mail:

Degli amici mi hanno consigliato di leggere questo sul tuo blog:

-My ex-girlfriend gave me 24 guaranà chocolate to gain energy each
wrapped with a small paper containing a short sentence...
I'm usually quite polite but she does'n understand that it's definetly
over since august..I don't like to be rude but it seems that simple
words does't work properly. I suppose she think that I'm so freaked
out (due to what I'm doing) then I don't realize now and I will
realize in the future.. she doesn't understand that it's over. punto.


Questo è la mia risposta: [sta scrivendo la tipa, è la sua risposta_ nota di BSamurai]

Guardati in faccia, guardati dentro e dato che hai deciso di mettere
in pubblico la nostra relazione, guardate bene tutti!
Non è abbastanza esibire su una pagina virtuale una lista dei nostri
"hobby e sport" preferiti, non è abbastanza intrattenere il pubblico
con le proprie verità. Non è abbastanza conoscere la maschera per
conoscere chi ci sta dietro.
La genuinità parola che ti è sempre stata difficile comprendere e con
questo gesto lo hai dimostrato: non hai mai detto a me ciò che con
tanta superficialità hai reso pubblico in questo blog!
Oltre a non aver mai avuto il coraggio di analizzare la nostra storia
per decidere se porvi fine o da lì ricostruire assieme, hai continuato
a cercare dei contatti con me , hai continuato questo rapporto da
"simil-amico", hai continuato a cercare una "fisicità" con me (che tu
ben sai a cosa ti ha portato quella sera).
La scusante: che "in questo momento difficile della tua vita" non ce
la facevi a rielaborare…e invece l'unica cosa chiara è che proprio non
ce la fai.
Evidentemente tu hai fatto questo passaggio di crederti indispensabile
nella mia vita, ma mi hai sottovalutato. O forse l'errore è stato mio
che ti sopravvalutato. Pensando che, in quella scatola di
cioccolatini, non avresti visto un'ex-fidanzata morbosamente attaccata
ad un amore finito, ma una persona che indipendentemente dal ruolo
assegnatole ti stava vicino.
Quello che hai fatto non è un insulto soltanto a me, ma è una
delusione per tutti quelli che hanno in te stima e fiducia!
Prova ad uscire dal tuo linocentrismo e a porti domande.


Se solo ti è rimasto un briciolo di correttezza e di rispetto, mi
aspetto domani di trovarlo scritto sul tuo blog!...E non solo in
inglese!

Non farti più vedere.

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here's me with sCHIVA

and Saint sCHIVA

...going to do much important things. Take Care!

Hmmmmm mumble mumble

everybody out here should read this long post from Tex and have a long night-think about some things...







for the one of you looking for the first made quickly slideshow of the first SG Italy's meeting click here