"Le chagrin qui me tue est ironique, et joint
Le sarcasme au supplice, et ne torture point
Franchement, mais picote avec un faux sourire
Et transforme en spectacle amusant mon martyre"
(Verlaine, Jésuitisme, V1-4, Poèmes Saturniens)

15 days that I didn't write on my blog ... What happened during those 15 days?


Good things:
I spent two good weekends. The first in the Cotes d'Armor in my family. I was a little tired but it was cool ... The second where I celebrated the birthday of one of my sisters (48 years!) And saw my nephew and my niece.
Another one of my nieces, my beloved niece, showed great attention to me. It's heart-warming to see that some people think so!
Beautiful sunny week, nice bike ride yesterday in the beautiful sunshine! It warms the bones!
Two swimming lessons (I'm in 3 now). I'm progressing well or very well. I'm starting to overcome my fear and I'm still ahead in my group to make dives or descents into the pit. In fact, last Friday I made a flat at one of my dives. This has slammed on the abs and since I have a little bad!

Bad things:
My boss gave me a funny proposal this week. He tells me to increase my salary but in return I would have less vacation. I just feel cheated me ... To see what is really behind the proposal. We have a team meeting tomorrow, I think it will heat (and it will not be due only to the current weather!).
I spent an date with a nice lady that I thought for a while ... but this has led nowhere (or at least not where I wish it goes). During this evening, I just screwed up with my awkward in the stories. I think she has something else to do right now than playing the social with me. So at best we will be friends. At worst, I would lose her completely.
This evening is quite symbolic of the small block I have. I really find it difficult to create links and to maintain it. So it was just the last straw ... I decided to face my demons in the face, and since Wednesday, I see a shrink. The first session went well and we decided to continue together. We must meet again Thursday. Hopefully this will help me advance in my life ... What I ardently hope but I can not do it alone ...
To be continued...