Well, i have been up for almost 48 hours and yet i still have not slept.... i cannot figure it out.... my mind is trying to tell me somethig that i cannot catch on to, and it is eating me up on the inside.... it is too bad you cannot hear what your sub-conscience mind is trying to tell you... i mean that would only be easy and who the hell wants that.... but NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have to figure this shit out yoursel, there is no easy way out of this, no one to tell you what is wrong, no doctor to say, "Hey, this is what is wrong with you. Take two of these and call me in the morning, and if you are not fixed, well then, YOUR FUCKED, DEAL!!!!!!!!!!"..... i mean that would be better than knowing that something was worng and not neing able to fix it....... and for those of you that know me, you will never know that somethig is wrong, unless you ask, then you might get an answer... otherwise, all you are gonna see is that perfect guise that i put on for everyone.... that same shit, different day answer..... what to do what to do what to do.... nothing .... that is all one can do, just sit back, watch the shit hit the fan, then play janitor for a week or so that watch it all happen once more.....

FUCK ALL OF THAT SHIT THAT IS ALL IT IS IS SHIT NOTHING MORE WHO NEEDS IT

Anywho (that phrase annoys me), this song by Bush sings to me, tells me something but i dont know what.... all i know is that i cannot quit listening to it.... many of his songs do this to me but this one in particular has been doing it to me more and more ... It is called "Everthing Zen".... check it out if you like them, and if you dont do it anyway cause it is a good song and you might just like them......

Well, i think i am finished here...

So how have all of you been in your own little worlds.... good or at least better than my own... if not then i am sorry .... but keep in ming that everthing gets better in the end, weither it be the end to the means that is putting...

Well, i have been up for almost 48 hours and yet i still have not slept.... i cannot figure it out.... my mind is trying to tell me somethig that i cannot catch on to, and it is eating me up on the inside.... it is too bad you cannot hear what your sub-conscience mind is trying to tell you... i mean that would only be easy and who the hell wants that.... but NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you have to figure this shit out yoursel, there is no easy way out of this, no one to tell you what is wrong, no doctor to say, "Hey, this is what is wrong with you. Take two of these and call me in the morning, and if you are not fixed, well then, YOUR FUCKED, DEAL!!!!!!!!!!"..... i mean that would be better than knowing that something was worng and not neing able to fix it....... and for those of you that know me, you will never know that somethig is wrong, unless you ask, then you might get an answer... otherwise, all you are gonna see is that perfect guise that i put on for everyone.... that same shit, different day answer..... what to do what to do what to do.... nothing .... that is all one can do, just sit back, watch the shit hit the fan, then play janitor for a week or so that watch it all happen once more.....

FUCK ALL OF THAT SHIT THAT IS ALL IT IS IS SHIT NOTHING MORE WHO NEEDS IT

Anywho (that phrase annoys me), this song by Bush sings to me, tells me something but i dont know what.... all i know is that i cannot quit listening to it.... many of his songs do this to me but this one in particular has been doing it to me more and more ... It is called "Everthing Zen".... check it out if you like them, and if you dont do it anyway cause it is a good song and you might just like them......

Well, i think i am finished here...

So how have all of you been in your own little worlds.... good or at least better than my own... if not then i am sorry .... but keep in ming that everthing gets better in the end, weither it be the end to the means that is putting you in the mood you are in presently or death, because it is the ultimate end to all means... well peace
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