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I have a new set in Member Review! Please comment on it! It was shot by the wonderful nicolletta a few weeks ago while she was visiting up here. We shot it in my bedroom. So please check out Amor!
It's so amazingly beautiful in San Francisco today! I'm having one of those life is so great days. It might stem from the fact that I've gone back into climbing. My gear has been sitting in my closet for almost ten months. Last Saturday I went back and seriously hurt afterward. Barely completed any V0s bouldering. A bit embarrassing. However last night I went back, completed some more difficult problems and did some toproping as well. I missed it so much. Almost enough to start going in the morning before work.
Another thing making me ultra happy today is... I bought a bike! Finally! I've been shopping for the past week, trying to figure out what I want, and today I finally pulled the trigger. Picked up a sweet surly crosscheck. All black. Riding back to work on it was a bit intense. The last time I'd actually been on a bike was probably in.. '92?! Ridiculous!
I don't know.. I feel like the last month, and my trip to Canada was really eye-opening for me. I've lessened the drinking a whole ton, and am trying to swap out bar nights with healthier activities. Even if I do go to the bar, it's one drink and that's it. I also met a kid that's really reminded me of the lifestyle I used to want. He's completely nomadic and actually living life. So I've been planning weekend trips to get the most out of the summer, like July 10th-11th is my white water rafting trip! Exciting!!
It's so amazingly beautiful in San Francisco today! I'm having one of those life is so great days. It might stem from the fact that I've gone back into climbing. My gear has been sitting in my closet for almost ten months. Last Saturday I went back and seriously hurt afterward. Barely completed any V0s bouldering. A bit embarrassing. However last night I went back, completed some more difficult problems and did some toproping as well. I missed it so much. Almost enough to start going in the morning before work.
Another thing making me ultra happy today is... I bought a bike! Finally! I've been shopping for the past week, trying to figure out what I want, and today I finally pulled the trigger. Picked up a sweet surly crosscheck. All black. Riding back to work on it was a bit intense. The last time I'd actually been on a bike was probably in.. '92?! Ridiculous!
I don't know.. I feel like the last month, and my trip to Canada was really eye-opening for me. I've lessened the drinking a whole ton, and am trying to swap out bar nights with healthier activities. Even if I do go to the bar, it's one drink and that's it. I also met a kid that's really reminded me of the lifestyle I used to want. He's completely nomadic and actually living life. So I've been planning weekend trips to get the most out of the summer, like July 10th-11th is my white water rafting trip! Exciting!!
Toronto People!
I'm having a last minute meet up / birthday fun gathering on Tuesday night around 9pm at the Horseshoe! Come on out and say, as I'm only in town for a couple more days and I've barely seen anyone. Mt St Helen's Vietnam Band, who are completely awesome, are playing and there's no cover! Yay!
Hope to see some of y'all out tomorrow (Tuesday) night!
I'm having a last minute meet up / birthday fun gathering on Tuesday night around 9pm at the Horseshoe! Come on out and say, as I'm only in town for a couple more days and I've barely seen anyone. Mt St Helen's Vietnam Band, who are completely awesome, are playing and there's no cover! Yay!
Hope to see some of y'all out tomorrow (Tuesday) night!
Zombie SG Prom was last night! There were some great parts, and also some incredibly bad, still need fixin' parts. Like usual prom? One thing is for certain, I'm going to lay off the drinking. When combined with my meds, I completely lose control. Sucks hard. Life ruining. I'm still in a state, so take a look at these photos!
I went all out with the zombification:
Great to meet everyone last night!
I went all out with the zombification:
Great to meet everyone last night!
My neck looks like it's decomposing. This is after two showers, and a great deal of rubbing to try and remove the glue and left over makeup from my photoshoot this weekend. What photoshoot? Only the best shoot I've ever been apart of. On Sunday, myself and Jaylin were the last two models for the 2010 My Zombie Pinup calendar. It was seriously legit. On Thursday I went to have a mold made for my prosthetics. I was playing a Zombie Cowgirl in a last stand shoot out. I had an epic chunk out of my neck from a zombie bite, along with a bunch of bullet wounds. The photographer, Shalaco along with Nick Katich and the rest of the crew did an amazing job. I cannot wait to see the finished product. Here are some photos. Do pardon the shitty quality:
The rest of the photos from the day can be seen over on flickr.
I also went up to Napa for Friday and Saturday, which was super relaxing and full of tasty, tasty foods. I came out of the hotel Saturday morning to find an amazing car show happening. Saw the sexiest 1970 Chevelle SS. DO WANT. It's actually pretty amazing how exhausting visiting wineries can be. I could only handle 4 before wanting to nap hard.
I have a set going into Member Review today!! It was shot by Cherry during the SG Vegas Invasion. I adore it SO much. Cherry did fantastic work, as usual. I hope you guys all like it! Here's a preview! And here is the whole set!
The rest of the photos from the day can be seen over on flickr.
I also went up to Napa for Friday and Saturday, which was super relaxing and full of tasty, tasty foods. I came out of the hotel Saturday morning to find an amazing car show happening. Saw the sexiest 1970 Chevelle SS. DO WANT. It's actually pretty amazing how exhausting visiting wineries can be. I could only handle 4 before wanting to nap hard.
I have a set going into Member Review today!! It was shot by Cherry during the SG Vegas Invasion. I adore it SO much. Cherry did fantastic work, as usual. I hope you guys all like it! Here's a preview! And here is the whole set!
I can't begin to explain how weird it was to read my archival message. I shed a few tears over it, that's for sure. After almost 6 years on the site, it was a very difficult decision to make, but at the time, I knew it was the absolute best thing. The situation I was dealing with was just too painful, and being on SG, where the other two parties happen to be, was seriously rough on me. As much restraint as I had, maintaining composure and civility was next to impossible. Too many hard feelings, too many reminders, you know? Weeks later, I've dealt with the impulse to attack, and feel much more positively about the situation. Though I'm absolutely dreading the first time I have to see she has a new photoset live. Blagh. Oops. Guess that just happened. Great timing on my part.
In reality tho, I'm kind of glad all that deceit happened, because I was finally able to let go. It's difficult to cut someone of 4 years out of your life. Especially when you've had a year of on and off and back on again long distance relationship stuff. It's pretty easy to romance the notion of it. But much like my layoff back in October, it was a blessing in disguise. Through the lies and things he left out, there was a substantial reason to finally end it, end all the I love you talks every night, all of that. No lingering feelings. I was actually able to finally move on, which I wanted to do, but just couldn't. So for that, I'm glad it all happened.
This entire situation did make me stronger, and more than anything, showed me how amazing my friends are. d20 came right over when I called crying. He didn't even ask why. zamn came over and hung out all day, even while I moped and borderline cried too often. Most important though, is jaylin. I tear up each time I think of how amazing she is, and how I could never have gotten through any of this if she wasn't around. Her positivity and comfort carried me through everything. Each time I had a weak moment, she reminded me of the cruelty of the situation. She kept me from being weak, from reaching for the phone to call, from accepting the situation and blame. I owe her so much for helping me through the manipulation and blame game. Jaylin is pretty much the best friend and sister anyone could possibly have. Regardless of any fights we have, any words we yell, at the end of the day, none of it matters. I love her to pieces.
And I should give Bob some thanks as well. She helped me put things into perspective and comes to some much needed realizations.
Friends are everything in the end.
I'd like to throw in some less heavy shit in here.. but at the moment, it's what I'm feeling, and what I need my entry back to say. I'm so glad to be back on SG, despite not being gone for that long. Thanks so much to missy and sean for understanding and letting me take that much needed break.
xoxo!
In reality tho, I'm kind of glad all that deceit happened, because I was finally able to let go. It's difficult to cut someone of 4 years out of your life. Especially when you've had a year of on and off and back on again long distance relationship stuff. It's pretty easy to romance the notion of it. But much like my layoff back in October, it was a blessing in disguise. Through the lies and things he left out, there was a substantial reason to finally end it, end all the I love you talks every night, all of that. No lingering feelings. I was actually able to finally move on, which I wanted to do, but just couldn't. So for that, I'm glad it all happened.
This entire situation did make me stronger, and more than anything, showed me how amazing my friends are. d20 came right over when I called crying. He didn't even ask why. zamn came over and hung out all day, even while I moped and borderline cried too often. Most important though, is jaylin. I tear up each time I think of how amazing she is, and how I could never have gotten through any of this if she wasn't around. Her positivity and comfort carried me through everything. Each time I had a weak moment, she reminded me of the cruelty of the situation. She kept me from being weak, from reaching for the phone to call, from accepting the situation and blame. I owe her so much for helping me through the manipulation and blame game. Jaylin is pretty much the best friend and sister anyone could possibly have. Regardless of any fights we have, any words we yell, at the end of the day, none of it matters. I love her to pieces.
And I should give Bob some thanks as well. She helped me put things into perspective and comes to some much needed realizations.
Friends are everything in the end.
I'd like to throw in some less heavy shit in here.. but at the moment, it's what I'm feeling, and what I need my entry back to say. I'm so glad to be back on SG, despite not being gone for that long. Thanks so much to missy and sean for understanding and letting me take that much needed break.
xoxo!
I'm currently sitting at OAK with jaylin waiting to board our plane to Austin for SXSW! Waking up at 3:15am to make this early flight is painful. I want to sleep on the airport floor. Right now. For a half hour before boarding. I cannot wait to get to Austin and SXSW. This will be my 3rd year of it. Nerd spring break is one of my year highlights usually. And this year Jaylin will be there to experience the amazing Interaction portion with me. Yay! We're getting bro tattoos while we're there. Bacon tattoos in fact. Last year, seanbonner and I got our coffee tattoos. It only makes sense to make it a tradition.
I have a new set in member review. Please check out Slow This Bird Down, shot by Shazzy while out in Vegas a few weeks ago. Hope y'all like it!
Yesterday I signed a lease on a new apartment in SF. It's soooo nice. I fell in love with it instantly. Hardwood floors, checkered floor in the kitchen, huge windows. My closet might even be my favorite part. It's so big, it has its own window. And Jaylin will be my new roommate! I really great change from my current situation and my crazy ocd roommate. He actually emailed me to tell me I didn't love my cats enough.. March 28th cannot come soon enough. We're planning our housewarming/san franniversary party already. It will be themed. And the loose theme at the moment is Cheap Cardboard Costumes. I'm going to be a lion.
If you aren't aware already, I'm also doing some modeling over on Zivity so if you want even more photos, that's where to find them.
And you can always find me on twitter at @poshy!
I have a new set in member review. Please check out Slow This Bird Down, shot by Shazzy while out in Vegas a few weeks ago. Hope y'all like it!
Yesterday I signed a lease on a new apartment in SF. It's soooo nice. I fell in love with it instantly. Hardwood floors, checkered floor in the kitchen, huge windows. My closet might even be my favorite part. It's so big, it has its own window. And Jaylin will be my new roommate! I really great change from my current situation and my crazy ocd roommate. He actually emailed me to tell me I didn't love my cats enough.. March 28th cannot come soon enough. We're planning our housewarming/san franniversary party already. It will be themed. And the loose theme at the moment is Cheap Cardboard Costumes. I'm going to be a lion.
If you aren't aware already, I'm also doing some modeling over on Zivity so if you want even more photos, that's where to find them.
And you can always find me on twitter at @poshy!
