How is it going SGland?
Yes I've been dragged a little away but for good reasons. Let's go through my ex-ci-ting sort of new life by a listing of things or categories:

- love
The independent idealist traveller and daydreamer that I am is now thinking in a plural way. None of these tempting open relationships I often stumble upon on here (I admire you guys for that); I just associate the verbs to cherish and love to a wonderful human being I have met three months ago (remember the handsome boy with the pale blue eyes on my previous blog?!). I spend my time raving about him, longing for him and doing my best that for when we meet (we live geographically apart), he feels amazing and loved and inspired. Such a pleasure to share and give some love. Before meeting him, it's always been a hassle; there were compromises, disagreements, misunderstandings and fights - relationships were more something to ignore and avoid and it left quite a few scars. I've always wondered if at some point you'd meet someone and actually feel and tell yourself, yes, he's the one I was looking for and the one I want to make happy as long as I'm alive. It really feels great; I sense that there's no longer need to look for something or someone, somehow relieved and genuinely delighted, at peace and serene. For the very first time I even had thoughts like getting married or even what it would be like having kids reconsidered. What's happening to me?!

(too much cuteness for my eyes!)

- food
I think I can describe myself as a pseudo-vegan. Meat and fish are not on the menu anymore, they actually haven't been in a while because I just could not afford them. Maybe I'm between being a vegetarian and a vegan. There's just a few things I'd miss too much by being a complete vegan like cheese and maybe eggs. Apart from that, it's all about soja, cereals, peanut butter, pasta, rice, fruits and veggies. I've spent ten days with my bf...

How is it going SGland?
Yes I've been dragged a little away but for good reasons. Let's go through my ex-ci-ting sort of new life by a listing of things or categories:

- love
The independent idealist traveller and daydreamer that I am is now thinking in a plural way. None of these tempting open relationships I often stumble upon on here (I admire you guys for that); I just associate the verbs to cherish and love to a wonderful human being I have met three months ago (remember the handsome boy with the pale blue eyes on my previous blog?!). I spend my time raving about him, longing for him and doing my best that for when we meet (we live geographically apart), he feels amazing and loved and inspired. Such a pleasure to share and give some love. Before meeting him, it's always been a hassle; there were compromises, disagreements, misunderstandings and fights - relationships were more something to ignore and avoid and it left quite a few scars. I've always wondered if at some point you'd meet someone and actually feel and tell yourself, yes, he's the one I was looking for and the one I want to make happy as long as I'm alive. It really feels great; I sense that there's no longer need to look for something or someone, somehow relieved and genuinely delighted, at peace and serene. For the very first time I even had thoughts like getting married or even what it would be like having kids reconsidered. What's happening to me?!

(too much cuteness for my eyes!)

- food
I think I can describe myself as a pseudo-vegan. Meat and fish are not on the menu anymore, they actually haven't been in a while because I just could not afford them. Maybe I'm between being a vegetarian and a vegan. There's just a few things I'd miss too much by being a complete vegan like cheese and maybe eggs. Apart from that, it's all about soja, cereals, peanut butter, pasta, rice, fruits and veggies. I've spent ten days with my bf cooking 100% vegan; we baked our break, cooked some amazing pies and cakes, had delicious dinners. I think it's more about the limits you fix to yourself, I would not starve myself to death. Some would not use 120mm films because they contain gelatin in it, I think it's a little bit too much even if I understand the point of it.

- photography
A new website is currently in process, although it should be ready some time in march this year. I feel like I'll be taken more seriously if I do so and as I am planning to send some of my works to magazines and websines, I want it to look perfect and spotless. Apart from shooting a few friends and my dear lover, I have been on a kind of stand by really. I'm full of projects, just need to select an achievable/affordable one and stick to it. In January I got a few pictures on a magazine called Jocks & Nerds (www.jocksandnerds.com), which pushes me to shoot and do more, feels rewarding in a way.






- daydreaming
Being in love hasn't decreased this favourite activity of mine, quite the opposite actually.

- money
Deceiving, discouraging. I work in an espresso bar as a manager, the position is great even if stressful at times but not well paid at all. I've worked there for more than six months and been just unable to save for my trips/travelling plans and projects and it feels pretty sad. I even came to a point that I should find myself a second job in the evening/night. No, actually the answer to the problem is to finally become a freelance photographer, but for now I need to be courageous and work more while brushing and polishing my website to get there. Requires a lot of persuasion.

- music
A few gigs planned for the next upcoming months, obviously a bit less than before. Explosions in the sky, Tune Yards, Mount Eerie,Jeff Mangum (!) Sufjan Stevens and a possible Primavera sound again towards the end of May.


My boyfriend asked me to do some backing vocals for his band. I had never been asked to do such so I felt quite shy for the first hour but gradually became more confident at the end of the trial. We should record something next time we have a chance to get to the recording studio. It's great fun, I really enjoy it!
They have three albums already, the best being Ends of June on which features this song:
http://soundcloud.com/lowlow-1/fear-of-a-wide-open-life

- books
I'm currently reading the autobiography of Keith Richards, it's really captivating, this rock star life he has had, plus it's sparkled with a great sense of humour; I actually don't really want to finish it, trying to make it last longer. Just kids by Patti Smith is supposedly the next one on the list but maybe I need a touch of fiction in between, I was thinking of another Murakami, or maybe try a George Perec one. William S Burroughs sounds great too, if you have some suggestions please feel free to share.


- SG
At the moment SG is more about getting my daily amount of perversity by a glance at the front page and see how my friends are doing in member review. I've had the chance to meet more pretty faces from the site last time I went to Belgium and to spend an afternoon in London with Lylie, Geisha and Sucette. I always spend such good times when they are around.
Sinnah tattooed a design my boyfriend did on my calf, I'm pretty amazed by her work!

http://superpaupiette.blogspot.com

I've been thinking wether I wanted to shoot again as a model for the site. Knowing my unpopularity, I wonder if that would be worth the hassle but I might try a last one. On the other hand, I'm still more than happy to shoot some sets as a photographer, so feel free to ask/arrange a shoot if you're tempted, my job and trips to see the boy will be on the way but nothing's impossible

That's all for now I reckon.