zsadist

WELL!!!!!!! I havent blogged in a long ass time. This will be the first of the new year. Hope everyone had a wicked one! Thailand was pretty amazing, the culture, the ocean and serentity and peace i felt sailing through the island.....UNTIL I ALMOST DIED LOL. Its quite a long story, but in the end the Shaman..yes i said Shaman...(i was in the boonies) assured me that I was going to be alright. No drinking on Christmas though, that was fucked up in itself, let alone having no sand and no snow to make it seem Xmassy. However, i will post a pic of something that was pretty cool that we spotted on Xmas eve. We were having dinner on the beach and we looked out into the water and one of the boats had its lights up and one big bright shining light above it. It looked exactly like the Nativity scene. That was kind of cool to see, it was like our own little xmas story. I wanted to shoot a set out there but I couldnt seem to find any privacy or time, it was like we always had someone ready to walk around the corner and see my nudie ass! I did shoot one before i left, it was Xmas themed and I was going to send it in as a themed set but I didnt end up getting it finished in time so its useless now. Maybe I'll throw the pics up here if someone wants to see them! As for lately, I recently found a passionate, amazing, mind numbing, consuming, cant take our hands off eachother, I love you bullshit Love. Everything was smooth sailing up until yesterday,... when it ended abruptly and I was left in the dust with little question marks floating around in my mind. I hate the feeling of not having closure, of questioning myself over and over about what went wrong. Of picking over every little detail of the past month to check to see if there was some road I missed and should have taken. So here starts day one of the healing process....getting tattoo'd today.. (These Violent Delights Have Violent Ends, And In Their Triumph Die. Like Fire and Powder. Which As They Kiss, Consume) How retardedly suiting for a day like today? Weird. Then if I can convince my artist to spend a little more time on me I might throw some little things in here and there on my sleeve. Then I plan on going out and get Mind numbingly drunk and hiding all my phones so I cant drunk dial my ex and make matters worse? I dunno...does that sound like a good idea? The Jamesons is calling me and I have a solid promise from a friend not to let me near any phones...but a part of me just wants to come home...and go to bed and sleep through it. Thats not coping though...neither is drinking...but I'll take the lesser of two evils anyday. At least when Im out drinking I can possibly find a hunk of man meat to have hate sex with........Dont chase em just replace em? Ya I wish it was that easy.....Pics of the tats will be posted! Feel free to comment on your best ways to get over someone quick! XXOXO Z
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