Happy New Year everyone. Hope everyone had a wicked xmas and NYE. I got back from Thailand on NYE exhuasted after flying and being stuck in airports for 30+ hours, not to mention being harassed by customs officials because apparently I look like a drug smuggler 
Who knew haha. Thailand was an...intersting experience to say the least, I almost came back in a coffin (not exaggerating) when I got into a scuba accident resulting the a small case of "The Bends" aka Nitrogen bubbles in the blood stream from not decompressing enough during ascension. I dont want to type of the whole story because reliving it is a fucking nightmare. I now need a nightlight to sleep lol what the fuck Im 26 years old. Thats fucking sad. But shit happens all the time, take it with a grain of salt and move on. Ive managed to come back with a little bit of a chip on my shoulder and a cloud over me, which is not what i wanted out of my vacation from the everyday bullshit that life brings. I got back to Calgary and immediatly was confronted by everything I was running from....shocking i know. Needless to say I guess thats what you get when you think you can run instead of facing up to them. I want to start this new year off by somewhat becoming a better person. Last year was shit and Im not fond of the person I let myself become. Im fucking sick of it. So heres hoping I can change. We all know that NY resolutions are made to be broken, Im hoping this one will survive. I need it to in order for myself to survive. So I'm starting fresh. Im cutting the poison out of my life and im being cut throat about it too. No more lack of self respect, no more slacking off and no more hurting the people around me. Especially the ones who have done nothing but been there for me in times of need. Thats the worst part, ive been fucking selfish. So hopefully this is day one of my fight against myself. The dark side vs the light side. Heres hoping evil doesnt prevail. Wish me luck. xoxo Z P.S Sorry for such a downer blog, just had to get it out. Thats what these things are for right? Expression. Its my only outlet...Thanks SG 
Who knew haha. Thailand was an...intersting experience to say the least, I almost came back in a coffin (not exaggerating) when I got into a scuba accident resulting the a small case of "The Bends" aka Nitrogen bubbles in the blood stream from not decompressing enough during ascension. I dont want to type of the whole story because reliving it is a fucking nightmare. I now need a nightlight to sleep lol what the fuck Im 26 years old. Thats fucking sad. But shit happens all the time, take it with a grain of salt and move on. Ive managed to come back with a little bit of a chip on my shoulder and a cloud over me, which is not what i wanted out of my vacation from the everyday bullshit that life brings. I got back to Calgary and immediatly was confronted by everything I was running from....shocking i know. Needless to say I guess thats what you get when you think you can run instead of facing up to them. I want to start this new year off by somewhat becoming a better person. Last year was shit and Im not fond of the person I let myself become. Im fucking sick of it. So heres hoping I can change. We all know that NY resolutions are made to be broken, Im hoping this one will survive. I need it to in order for myself to survive. So I'm starting fresh. Im cutting the poison out of my life and im being cut throat about it too. No more lack of self respect, no more slacking off and no more hurting the people around me. Especially the ones who have done nothing but been there for me in times of need. Thats the worst part, ive been fucking selfish. So hopefully this is day one of my fight against myself. The dark side vs the light side. Heres hoping evil doesnt prevail. Wish me luck. xoxo Z P.S Sorry for such a downer blog, just had to get it out. Thats what these things are for right? Expression. Its my only outlet...Thanks SG