well tonight my original plan was to get to bed early because i have a cold and i need the rest, well that'd didn't happen, obviously
so here's what did happen.
i talked to casey tonight, and we got everything ironed out about why i haven't called her in like 3 weeks and why she was so upset about it.
i should've left the conversation at that. but no, i didn't i had to ask "so what else have you been up to?" so by asking this is was setting myself up for the "oh i'm seeing someone else too" which is fine, but when i found out who it was i got sort of pissed off.
turns out that casey is sort of seeing my friend adam, a kid who always told me that he would never date a friends ex.. bull to the shit... i'm over casey, i have no feelings about her in a relationship sort of way, but i feel betrayed, by her and him...
why shouldn't i be mad about this?
i mean, yeah, i know i don't go out to the bar and hang with everyone and i knew she'd find someone else, but still, he's a friend... that's just something you don't do to someone...
rule #1 in life:
never date your friends ex
so i found out that the next time i went to the bar, or they saw me, adam was going to ask me if it was ok... and put me on the spot, in a public place none-the-less. and i guess i'm just glad that she told me on the phone, because had adam asked me in public i would've made a huge scene. i don't agree with it, but i told her that i guess it's ok, since i'm not the man of her life anymore and shit happens so i'll deal. i did however tell her that if i find out that she did any drugs with him (since he was/is a junkie) i will write her off without thinking twice about it and i also told her that if he treats her bad, he's going to have to deal with the repercussions that come with being involved with me.
other then that it's been a shitty night ever since shadis' phone died on me.
i'm sick, i'm tired of bullshit, i'm tired of people talking shit behind my back.... seriously, if you have some sort of beef with me for any fucking reason, tell me honestly and direct. don't beat around the fucking bush... i'm done with that petty bullshit... honestly i want to get the fuck out of this town, it's holding me back, and dragging my heart into the ground. i want new scenery and a new atmosphere. i'm tired of being a no body and a slacker.
i'm done with it.. done done done.
the future is wide fucking open and i'm stuck in a bunch of pointless jobs. no money, no life.
but i do have an amazing female compainion... which is great.
oh man, i'm freaking out over here, because i feel like i'm being pulled in 3 different ways.
i'm done for now.
why the fuck do people have to be so fucking two faced?
people i've known for almost 10 years... they can't just tell me this shit.
so here's what did happen.
i talked to casey tonight, and we got everything ironed out about why i haven't called her in like 3 weeks and why she was so upset about it.
i should've left the conversation at that. but no, i didn't i had to ask "so what else have you been up to?" so by asking this is was setting myself up for the "oh i'm seeing someone else too" which is fine, but when i found out who it was i got sort of pissed off.
turns out that casey is sort of seeing my friend adam, a kid who always told me that he would never date a friends ex.. bull to the shit... i'm over casey, i have no feelings about her in a relationship sort of way, but i feel betrayed, by her and him...
why shouldn't i be mad about this?
i mean, yeah, i know i don't go out to the bar and hang with everyone and i knew she'd find someone else, but still, he's a friend... that's just something you don't do to someone...
rule #1 in life:
never date your friends ex
so i found out that the next time i went to the bar, or they saw me, adam was going to ask me if it was ok... and put me on the spot, in a public place none-the-less. and i guess i'm just glad that she told me on the phone, because had adam asked me in public i would've made a huge scene. i don't agree with it, but i told her that i guess it's ok, since i'm not the man of her life anymore and shit happens so i'll deal. i did however tell her that if i find out that she did any drugs with him (since he was/is a junkie) i will write her off without thinking twice about it and i also told her that if he treats her bad, he's going to have to deal with the repercussions that come with being involved with me.
other then that it's been a shitty night ever since shadis' phone died on me.
i'm sick, i'm tired of bullshit, i'm tired of people talking shit behind my back.... seriously, if you have some sort of beef with me for any fucking reason, tell me honestly and direct. don't beat around the fucking bush... i'm done with that petty bullshit... honestly i want to get the fuck out of this town, it's holding me back, and dragging my heart into the ground. i want new scenery and a new atmosphere. i'm tired of being a no body and a slacker.
i'm done with it.. done done done.
the future is wide fucking open and i'm stuck in a bunch of pointless jobs. no money, no life.
but i do have an amazing female compainion... which is great.
oh man, i'm freaking out over here, because i feel like i'm being pulled in 3 different ways.
i'm done for now.
why the fuck do people have to be so fucking two faced?
people i've known for almost 10 years... they can't just tell me this shit.
Oh and YA, Hey thanks so much for the nice stuff you said about my set