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my head hurts. i'm chalking it up to the copious amount of vodka i drank last night, as well as all the thoughts that are all squeezed in there, squirming and pushing for room in the forefront of my brain. feels like i'm walking around with a fishtank full of tribbles balanced on my neck.

i'm tempted to post a big whiny blog about all...
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i'm incredibly frustrated and anxious about my financial situation right now.
other than that, i'm doing really well right now.
i'm all smiles and giddy with excitement about ___ ____ right now.
my hands are cold right now.
right now, i should be getting ready for the video premiere i'm going to tonight.
right now, work is slow and boring and that makes me nervous....
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ok ok ok. here's the past few days in a nutshell.

for reals, now i'm unpacked. it looks like an apartment again. for you confused-like motherfuckers, i moved into my old room in my old apartment with gonzo77. no, it's not weird. no, we aren't sleeping together. yes, i cooked dinner tonight and it was flippin awesome. yes, you can crash in the living...
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Well, mostly moved in. The apartment is a wreck, I'm exhausted, my back is all tweaky, and gonzo77 and treblah are fuckin saints for helping me. but I'm home! I'm happy!

Rickrolled has a radio show friday mornings that you all should listen to. I don't know the exact link, but I listened this morning and it was awesome. With his permission I will post...
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on the bare edges of spring,
you render my face a sunrise.

smooth muscles strain and yield,
sliding against the bare earth
clods of dirt gather under my
fingernails.

this is the stillness before the
burst
ing open. a cloud of seeds
tickles
a random giggle
revel in it.

i'm happy today. with every new morning, my life is making more and more sense, even as it makes less and less sense on paper. i feel at home in my own skin again.
i feel calm, content.
i feel loved. my friends are the excellent.
and i am damn excited about the way things are turning out in all aspects of my life. what'd...
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well, mr painter guy called me back monday, as promised...at 1030 at night, when i had already given up hope. what is it with this guy thinking its appropriate to hang out at midnight on a weeknight?? i just met you in a bar dummy, we didn't click *that* much. sheesh. don't you have work in the morning?

his excuse? "sorry i didn't call you...
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well, this was a long and weird week. after the whole beyonce incident, i spent most of my free time drinking and breaking things.

hey hey all. thanks for all the kind thoughts and whatnot. it made me happy.

i think getting that last huge blog out of my system was good for my soul. this weekend i really feel like i've hit a turning point in dealing with all this. i spent the entire time amongst friends, just "fillin' up on love". and no, not in a dirty...
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