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i really don't update enough these days, do i? the other day i accidentally unplugged my compy while it was on *cringe* so it's been out of commission all week. but thanks to infinity it's all better. infinity is a computer guru. you should all send him kisses.

let's see...what else...
i've started painting my bedroom!!!! it's red!!! the end is neigh. for those of you who have patiently listened to me bitch about it since oh, april, thank you so much. soon as it's done i'm having you all over for a creepy basement bedroom party. check facebook for mobile updates!

my tattoo appt at the philly con approacheth. i will be there with my darling justblaze on sunday, so i hope to see some philly peeps. come laugh at me while i'm crying my eyes out during a 4 hour sitting!

happy birthday derceto! fun time party goodness. too bad i was so worn out and bleh. i was so happy to hang out w the whole sgnj gang (and sgny a little bit) but i felt like i was underwater.

my house is crazy dealing with my brothers bar mitzvah this weekend. everyone is all sorts of high strung. i can't wait for it to be over.

me and clifton booked all our shiz for the wedding i'm in next month. yes, i get to bring him. the bride and i had a little drunken chat the other night- well, she was drunk, on 2 glasses of wine, and i was sippin a st germain and vodka, but not yet drunk- and she decided it was stupid to leave him at home. so it looks like the wedding i was dreadin' will be a fun fucking vacation after all.

i got an assistant at work. she's my mom's age. she's very nice and a decent worker, but i feel weird giving someone older than me orders.

i think i might be shooting soon...but it's not for sg so i'm keeping my clothes on. this should be interesting, i've never really done a clothed shoot. i ganked a corset from work just for the occasion!

jersey has a wonderful new set in member review. i think it's her best one yet! stop by and leave her some comment love, because she sure as hell deserves to see this live. i miss my jersey girl. she's one of my favorite people on the site and we never get to hang out much when she's home.

i had a little epiphany the other night. well, sorta. i was getting in my car and looked closely at all the shit hanging from my rearview mirror. amongst it, buried, was this little string of silver hearts that i had made that said "zoo and gonzo (with our real names) made for each other". now, i'd been having a few random sad moments about him recently, and it was really bothering me. so i ripped it down, looked at in my hand for a few moments and said my goodbyes, threw it onto the nearby train tracks, and did a little happy dance. and i've felt so utterly free since then. like he was my friend, my lover, and a big part of my life, and i will always care for him. but now i feel like i've officially moved on. it's over. whatever he's doing, whoever he's with, i am not affected by it. i will not be involved in any drama or ugliness, or at all even. i wish him well. i am free of the sadness.

now, if only the same could be said about certain other individuals in my life, then i'd be golden.

and that's my story, i'm sticking to it.
here's a picture to keep you from completely falling asleep:



two of my favorite women in the whole wide world. <3
g'nite sg!

ps- i'm sad i can't leave you all comment love. so please pretend that i did just now. kthx.