wow...i was all set to write the most verbose, introspective blog today, whining about my problems, and how upset i was earlier today, and how i cried in my beer a little. but then i read my friends page, and it seems like a lot of you are in the same boat. in a mysterious, "my life is taking a crap on me head but i won't go into many details" sort of way.
so basically, we're all hurting. and it sucks...
*hugs*
you know what we all need? a little of this...
hehehehehe
(if y'all are like me, you probably won't watch those. i never watch other people's youtubes unless they tie me down and force me. but trust me, you only need to sit through the first 20 seconds of each to get the gist.)
i guess my big problem right now is trust issues. aside from camp no pants and a few select others who were not officially part of our camp, i'm really having a hard time trusting some of my "close" friends right now. i've always had faith in humanity- to a fault even- but so much shit has gone down recently, and i've been witness to so many lies and double crossing that i don't really know who's actually on my team. and it hurts, you know? you think you know someone, you think you can count on them to be honest and faithful, and they turn and stab you in the uterus. and it's just appalling. and frustrating. i feel like i can't even write this in specifics, because someone will surely take it a certain way and run with it and start more drama.
i'd so much rather someone come out and tell me to fuck off right to my face, rather than pretend everything is kosher. i respect people enough not to be phony. i appreciate the same in return.
on top of that, work is kicking my ass. rumor has it that my boss is finally going on disability. she's been out sick for 5 months as of august, and it seems that every time she goes to the doctor they find something else wrong with her. she wasn't in good health to begin with- morbidly obese, high blood pressure, possibly pre-diabetic. but it's really starting to look like she might not ever come back. so not only am i dealing with this promotion and having my own project to get neurotic over, i am absorbing all of her work. (which is what i've been doing for years, now i just can't get a hold of her to ask questions.) combine that with my crew being shunted elsewhere in the shop to work on other projects leaving me feeling helpless and working way slower than usual, and EVERYTHING on my worklist being due like in two weeks...yeah i'm fried. like fucking hell lion king, you couldn't have ordered those tricksters three months ago when we were totally dead? bastards.
my family...yeah my family is something else. i'd completely forgotten what an unhealthy scene my house is. high stress, negative energy, disrespect, a complete lack of responsibility...oh and no privacy. LOVE that. and three cats and a dog always underfoot. Jello is doing quite well though, he's really adjusted quickly. he still tends to chill in my room most of the time, but he gets along great with the other cats, and the dog LOVES him. i think so long as he has an escape route to the depths of the garbage pile in my room, he will be fine. (if he keeps taking a shit on leftover camping supplies however...the fur will fly.) lol
wow, looks like i wrote a big old blog after all. funny how this afternoon i was so upset about what a crap situation i'm in. and right now, since i got it all out of my system, i'm feeling all lucky and happy again. i think i can blame a lot of that on this guy. he's so wonderful. and stupid me, i need a night to sulk in my room when i could've been giggling about something with him someplace fun. *kicks self*
anyway kids, i leave you with this little gem... tee hee su-ah-bru...
I watch the youtubes sometimes, if I can find my headphones.
I liked the one Simpsons episode where they used that Sunshine lollipops song as car chase music.
I was so annoyed and stressed last week, I almost ran off to Vegas or NYC a couple times. But weird flight times and sold out flights kept me from going.
Sorry to hear that you're being beaten up on so many fronts at the same time
Retail pharmacy is kicking my ass - the store I'm working at is kinda disorganized at the moment because we're missing an employee due to surgery. That and the local roads near my house are kinda fucked up due to construction.
Things shall calm down once all the deadlines pass - but until then it's going to be a whole lot of
I got a feeling that one month from today good things will happen, specifically in the form of a much needed night out
I liked the one Simpsons episode where they used that Sunshine lollipops song as car chase music.
I was so annoyed and stressed last week, I almost ran off to Vegas or NYC a couple times. But weird flight times and sold out flights kept me from going.
Retail pharmacy is kicking my ass - the store I'm working at is kinda disorganized at the moment because we're missing an employee due to surgery. That and the local roads near my house are kinda fucked up due to construction.
Things shall calm down once all the deadlines pass - but until then it's going to be a whole lot of
I got a feeling that one month from today good things will happen, specifically in the form of a much needed night out