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i don't know what the fuck is in the water around these here parts...but it's making everyone batshit crazy. i feel like there's been more drama in the past few weeks than in the entire 2 years i've been here- both in public and in private. i'm fuckin sick of it though. i don't like it one bit.

i'd like to think that no issue is unsolvable- provided that it is dealt with in a thoughtful, respectful, non-confrontational way. it's fine to be upset, emotional reactions are valid and should be treated that way. but jesus h christ, can't we get through this?

it upsets me a great deal to see my friends hurting. it upsets me to see cracks forming in my group. with all the shit going on in my life right now, it is extremely important to me- it's my oasis. sg has consistently been there for me through thick and thin, and for it to not be all of a sudden is a bit of a mindfuck. i want what's best for us all and i want this negativity to end, and damn soon. call me selfish but i need it to happen cause i just can't take another upheaval in my life. there's just too much ugliness in this world as it is and we all deserve a space where we are free of that.

i personally, don't hate anybody. i'm really hesitant to take black and white sides on a grey issue. if i have any issues with people i'd like to think after i take a step back and cool off i can address it the way it needs to be addressed. cause hey, we're all human, we make mistakes. you may be a fucking asshole at times and annoy the shit out of me, but that doesn't necessarily mean i hate you or want you out of my life. i've always been a forgiver, and i'm a firm believer in second chances. always the optimist, having too much trust and faith in humanity. don't fucking let me down though. don't you dare.

with that said...let's get on with the show, shall we?

gonzo's been home sick since thursday. sicker than he's ever been and it worries me. fever, lethargy, headache, etc. he's been sleeping a whole lot. we went to the dr this morning- no real answers yet, but i've got him in bed with lots of fluids and meds and all that good stuff. so send him some positive vibes, will ya? i hate to see him so down and out.

i also went to the dr yesterday. not the news i was hoping for, fer shur. nothing life threatening, just disappointing. my health insurance didn't cover my scrip either, which is always awesomesauce. this is another thing i won't be talking about so no point in asking because i won't tell ya.

yeah i've got a lot more mundane things i could talk about but i am just too tired now. hopefully later in the week things will have calmed down a bit and we can get back to happy fun zoo stories. the good thing about all this though is that so much has been thrown my way in the past few months that i think i can no longer be upset about it all. there's a point where shit gets SO ridiculous that you can only laugh at it, and be glad for the things you have.

xoxoxoxo
hope yr all well, and safe, and happy. srsly.