i feel like crap today, may be coming down with something icky. didn't go to astoria. went to my moms house and cleaned up the basement as a birthday present. zomg they have a lot of crap in that basement. but i got to bring home a provencal tablecloth for my kitchen that my mom didn't want. and some cauliflower for the sag panir i'm going to attempt to cook later! yeah i'm a dork.
diner of the month was a rousing success. now everyone in sgnj knows how badly i sing. hopefully they were too drunk to remember, but i doubt it. luckily there were no video cameras!
the tattoo convention was fun too. i got the bf ice-t's autograph. fuck tha police. love hangin out with my sg peeps.
last night was...well, it was weird. i hate the feeling that everyone in the room is talking shit about me. especially when it's actually happening and not just me being paranoid! my own damn fault i suppose... but it was awful. i ended up getting very very drunk and still couldn't deal with it. i don't hate people but i often come across that way. sucks cause deep down i just feel insecure sometimes, and want to be loved like any other person. so if you think i hate you, then just don't. cause there's a really good chance that yr wrong.
*sigh*
*cough cough cough*
i'm gonna go over there for a while now...
I'm sitting in a Starbucks in Paramus balling my eyes out.