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Ever have a really good day at the end of it, you just want to cry? Idk what the hell my problem is, but as soon as I got alone I wanted to just bawl. I know what it is. i had to make a list of all of the autistic symptoms Violet has, for her doctor tonight, and it was four pages worth. It's different when you put it down on paper. Sheesh, it just makes me feel so fucking bad! I mean look at this gorgeous kid!


I've never been one to believe that everything happens for a reason, and especially after having a child with multiple disabilities, because it's not fair to her, or me. I mean think about it. What if you had a child with Down syndrome and autism and you constantly heard "You got her because you're strong" or "Everything happens for a reason" OR "God only gives those kids to special people." Okay aren't we ALL special?! That's my humor kicking in. If that were the case, we'd all have one. Violet is such a strong and able-bodied child, but when it comes down to putting her unfortunates down on paper, it sucks. I'm just being honest. I'm not looking for a shoulder or a feel sorry for me, I'm just venting. I must admit, the home schooling is doing wonders, but I need a vacation! Anyone down for a much needed trip to Disney World, no kids, just FUN and adult stuff?! Look at this face, it needs a vacation!

to add to the shitty day, I went and got a Diet Pepsi out of the fridge and opened it, took a big swig, and the damn thing was hot. WTFuckingF!!!

SO I settled for a skinny raspberry latte made by yours truly.
I'm really not in a bad mood, more in a smart-ass-sort of mood. I'm getting tattooed tomorrow. That'll be nice. I haven't gotten one in 2 mos which is entirely too long for me!
I bought "Due Date" today and I haven't got to watch it. I spent most of the evening getting my ass kicked in Marvel vs. Capcom 3. Once I got the second controller to work. Damn, my dumb ass even went to Walmart and bought a fourth controller because I couldn't figure it out. Well I guess if I need four controllers, I'm good to go.
And for the record, I am NOT that clumsy,(referring to the broken toe, and all of the other foot injuries lately) I just have bad luck. Nah, I don't think I believe in luck. Although if luck existed I would be on the list for Worst Luck ever haha!

For your humor, I'm sitting here listening to my ipod and it went from Fiona Apple "Frosty the Snowman," Taylor Dayne "Tell it to my Heart," and Slick Rick "Children's Story,' and now Outkast "Rosa Parks." What a combo. So here is some more randomness ( I can't get enough GaGa, make all of the fun of me you want!)

But seriously, can someone tell me what a "paper gangsta" is? I did buy the new Adele cd today, because I am a lady and I enjoy girly music. OH and I found the Porky's 3 pack today on dvd. I have been looking for 2 and 3( becaus eI have 1) and I found all 3 in a set for $15.00 at Walmart tonight. So I get to enjoy that too.
I started reading "The Bell Jar" which kind of freaks me out a bit, since she wrote that right before she killed herself, but I've been wanting to read it for awhile. I'm a big advocate for used books, so I bought it on Amazon.com and it said it was 99% positive (like new) and it came in today. This damn book looked like someone wiped their ass on it and then handed it to their dog, which then took it, chewed it up, and then left it in a puddle. WOW, it's like 2% like new, but still readable. Don't anyone spoil it for me!
So, my birthday is March 29 and I feel like I'm getting too old for certain things. For instance, my bright ass makeup, colored hair, and wild nail polish. My mom even said I was too old for my facial rings. That's just her way of trying to get me to take them out, so she isn't so ashamed of her "mutilated" kids HA! My little sister is like a walking mini me. We have a lot of tattoos and holes in our bodies. It's funny how my mom was devastated when I got my first tattoo, and now 50 plus in, she's wanting one(she has a nickel sized butterfly on her ankle that she got when I was 15, that she covers with a bandaid). She wants a barbed wire, which I refuse to let her get. My grandma makes it a point of calling me when she sees someone with tattoos and or holes in their face, etc. It goes a little something like this " Hey honey, I saw this young man today with his face tattooed and he had a chain from his nose to his ear. At first I was terrified, but then I thought of my amazing grand daughter and I felt a little better. He was making my sandwich at The Subway(insert laughter) and so I left a fifty cent tip." Ahaahahahahahahaaaaa!!! WTF And then she proceeds to tell me how I've taught her that outer appearance doesn't change who you are on the inside. No shit grandma. This coming from the woman who I argue with because she has her ears pierced and her eye brows tattooed on, but that is totally different according to her. She says if God wanted me to have all these tattoos and piercings that I would have been born with them, so I tell her if God wanted her to have eye brows, she would have been born with them( she had rheumatic fever when she was 11 and lost all of the pigment in her hair). Hey I have a valid point!
Geez, i don't think I've ever written a journal entry this long. Just goes to show you that I need to get out more often! It seems like I never leave the house anymore, and I do all of my shopping online, which can get me into trouble heehee.
So I guess on that note I'm going to take a bubble bath and call it a night. Goodnight my loves

PS Don't forget to show "Violet Crush" some more love