Thursday Jan 06, 2011

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Guys I gotta be honest with you, I don't think I want to stick around. I'm fucking heartbroken. I allowed myself to feel when I shouldn't have. My friends have hurt me, my daughter's heart is bad, my health is falling apart. I'm not happy, I can't cheer up, I want to be special to just one person. Not just a pretty face. I tried so hard.I've just been a game or a joke to what seems like everyone. frownpuke


AND you should never ever be made to feel bad about how you feel. I'm a loving person, I always have been. Things haven't been easy. They just keep getting worse.
Fuck it Fuck you Fuck this! I don't deserve this!
OH and get this, I step on some fucking glass...go to er 8 stitches no pain meds nothing. I give up. I'm undeserving.
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wasabibellavita:
darling, i'm so sorry that you are feeling down. i know you're trying hard to stay positive and you've been dealing with so much stress. more than anything i wish i could help you in some way.
knives2meatyou:
I hope this is just a passing frustration and sadness. You know how important you are to a lot of people here. Sometimes a virtual friend is better than someone you deal with in your physical life. Our hold on you is very tenuous (you could leave at any time) so we treasure the time you give us. You know how to get hold of me if you want to talk. Just please, don't despair. Our world is better for having you in it - I just know your life will turn around.

And you're right, you DON'T deserve this, and certainly a beautiful innocent like Vi doesn't either. But it is what it is, and this will pass and you'll both be stronger.

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