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Today has down right sucked and now I'm sitting in the hospital awaiting kidney surgery or a tube or something. Hell I'm not even really sure wtf is going on. To save anyone the questions, I guess I've had a stone lodged there for quite some time and it's caused a pretty good bit of back up and possibly some kidney failure. It's fine, I'll be okay. I've had low blood sugar three times today, because the idiots put me on too much insulin. How can someone expect you to be okay when it seems like the world around you is crumbling?
One thing that breaks my tiny little heart is lack of communication. Everyone knows that you cant help the way you feel, and I certainly can't. You ever just want to have a special place in someone's heart? Even if it's just as a good friend? You pour your heart out to them, and they know everything in your life that's going on, and then come to find out you're a bit of a joke, and if that's not the way they feel, they sure didn't try to make you understand the way they feel. I don't want to be lied to, or not told what is really going on. I just wanted to know. Now I don't. I don't care. My feelings are gone. I should NOT be made to feel bad about asking questions or feeling a little hurt! As I said before, you can't help the way you feel. I needed a shoulder, someone to listen, and I guess this person had other priorities. To sum it up, my feelings are hurt. My heart hurts. I'm worried about my baby. I'm actually terrified, and I'm worried about myself, because I have other health issues that i'd rather not discuss. I figured if someone knew what was going on in your life, that they would be open to a little extra sensitivity. I guess I don't deserve to be upset and moody. However, I'll take the blame, but I did care. And when my sugar IS low and you ask me if my sugar is low, I have NO idea that it is, let alone, who I am, or what the hell is going on around me. But like I said and I'll say it again, It's my own fault.
IDK how to relax and especially with everything going on in my life right now, how can anyone just expect me to be able to just calm it down?! So yes I'm sad, and yes I'm angry, and no I don't expect sympathy or anything like that. But this is MY journal, and I'm writing in it as if I were writing in my own personal diary.
On a different note, here's some tunes for the mood:

And now for some pictures:

I'm not yellow, it's just the lighting hee hee:

So I got the new Katy Perry perfume "Purr" today. Talk about the cutest f-ing bottle I've ever seen! It smells amazing as well. If you want it though, it's selling fast, and you can find it at Nordstroms or if you have a Nordstroms store near you, but it's an exclusive only for their store, well at least for now. Check out this bottle(it's the bigger size) oh and it comes with a detachable ring with a dangling heart jewel that says "Purr" on it:

I also found the new Revlon scented nail polishes, that smell when they're dry. I got a mango scented one, bubble gum, and mon cherry. Also I found some super huge Junior Mints:

also I had to show off my adorable flats I've been wearing around all day.

And here is my tiny undecorated white Christmas tree, with purple lights:

and this is a horrible picture, but check out this tiny lighter with sparrows on it. It's super compact!

And the person buying all of this random shit:


She loves to dress herself lately, and I have to give her major props for this outfit!!
I wish people would try to understand a little better. It would make me smile if things could just start over.
And last, but not least:

BOOTY!

I hope everyone has a fun and exciting weekend!! Hugs, kisses, and candy bars