And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD took you a little farther away from me
Away from me
Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself
'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"
So who's going to watch you die?..
Love is watching someone die...
I got Bi-focals today, I feel like an old lady. Idk if you can see them, but I have the lines on my lens too haha
I wanted to make you happy. I wanted to be the best of friends. I wanted you to trust me. I wanted to feel okay about the way I feel. Why can't I? Why can't things ever go right? What's wrong with me? 
Love it will not betray you
Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free
I've got some questions for you, and I'd love everyone's input!
Question 1: What makes you happy?
Question 2: Is there something or someone that you look forward to each day?
Question3: What do you honestly want for Christmas? Could be a person, place, or thing.
And Question 4: Who's your all time favorite character? Could be from a movie, cartoon, tv show, etc.
I suppose I have to answer these now hee hee. Okay What makes me happy....Um there's a few people that make me happy, especially my daughter, the other people shall remain nameless.
I look forward to happy messages when I wake up. Could be a sunny day, an email, waking up to one of my favorite tv shows, waking up to my wee one singing, or waking up from a good dream.
For Christmas I want to be happy. I want to have one day where everything goes well. A day where I feel pretty. A day where I get to do what I want to do. Maybe some flowers too haha.
AND my all time favorite character is of course Hello Kitty, but I also adore Boba Fett from Star Wars, The Baroness for G.I. Joe, and Buttercup Powerpuff from the Powerpuff Girls. I'm excited to read your answers, and don't be shy. 
1. Being connected to someone.
2. Yes
3. Getting my son home from the hospital
4. the Tin Man