I'm tired of everyone around me telling me "that's life"
I fucking get it... It is life.. MY life. So here is the current story of my life.
I'm 20 years old with no sense of stability because I haven't been in the same place long enough for the past 2 years to establish anything. Thanks to the US Army.. Yes I'm in the army, and as of right now I'm also deployed, my job can be pretty stressful as it is, being thousands of miles away from your friends and family is pretty stressful too. Going on vacation for 2 weeks, expecting to live life, do the things you took for granted before but instead spending everyday in the hospital with your father because ever since I left for this shithole country his health got worse.. And then listening to a doctor tell me and my mom his chances of life are slim... Going to a hospital one day and seeing true happiness on his face that I was home safe.. the next day he was trying to remember who I was. And my mom she can;t even work anymore because she HAS to spend every moment with him, she's on hardship leave but it's been 2 months.. she's the only source of income, and I'm the only one they have, I'm not there and my family is falling apart. My best friend is moving in with her boyfriend of a year.. I'm happy for her, but so jealous because I know I can't have that.. My relationships have crumbled for the past 2 years because of "my life" friends are so far and few between.. Sometimes I don't hear from them for months, and it sucks knowing that while I put my life on hold, theirs goes on without me.. it's not fair but it is life. I don't know where my life is heading.. I've had some pretty close calls.. but for all of this at once, it's definitely a new record... after my accident I started seeing a shrink, I feel like I'm slipping I can't remember feeling this lost.
And my so called support system can just tell me "suck it up.... that's life"
Well it's MY life and they have no fucking idea.
No idea what it's like to lose everything over and over again before you're even legal. I know why it;s so easy for them to say that though... because they got to live theirs... I was cheated out of mine at a very young age.
I fucking get it... It is life.. MY life. So here is the current story of my life.
I'm 20 years old with no sense of stability because I haven't been in the same place long enough for the past 2 years to establish anything. Thanks to the US Army.. Yes I'm in the army, and as of right now I'm also deployed, my job can be pretty stressful as it is, being thousands of miles away from your friends and family is pretty stressful too. Going on vacation for 2 weeks, expecting to live life, do the things you took for granted before but instead spending everyday in the hospital with your father because ever since I left for this shithole country his health got worse.. And then listening to a doctor tell me and my mom his chances of life are slim... Going to a hospital one day and seeing true happiness on his face that I was home safe.. the next day he was trying to remember who I was. And my mom she can;t even work anymore because she HAS to spend every moment with him, she's on hardship leave but it's been 2 months.. she's the only source of income, and I'm the only one they have, I'm not there and my family is falling apart. My best friend is moving in with her boyfriend of a year.. I'm happy for her, but so jealous because I know I can't have that.. My relationships have crumbled for the past 2 years because of "my life" friends are so far and few between.. Sometimes I don't hear from them for months, and it sucks knowing that while I put my life on hold, theirs goes on without me.. it's not fair but it is life. I don't know where my life is heading.. I've had some pretty close calls.. but for all of this at once, it's definitely a new record... after my accident I started seeing a shrink, I feel like I'm slipping I can't remember feeling this lost.
And my so called support system can just tell me "suck it up.... that's life"
Well it's MY life and they have no fucking idea.
No idea what it's like to lose everything over and over again before you're even legal. I know why it;s so easy for them to say that though... because they got to live theirs... I was cheated out of mine at a very young age.