zoelielynn

I guess I should clarify what I meant in my last blog about the set I just shot. I didn't even get to submit it to SG for Member Review because everything about the set was just off... I asked to see the whole set unedited, but the photog refused, so I'm just letting it go.

It kinda sent me over the edge because a lot of shit has been happening to me all at once. I'm pretty much an emotional ticking time bomb, so anything that goes wrong just seems like such a huge problem (even when it's not).

The worst part about all of this is that I might have to stop shooting for a while so I can find a second job to pay for the shit I desperately need. My car is falling apart and there's no way I can afford to fix it anytime soon I just wish I could get the big break I deserve. I've literally been busting my ass working my normal job 40+ hours a week, then modeling almost every weekend to try to bring in any sort of extra income. It's still not enough though, even after I filed for bankruptcy earlier this month. And with my lupus acting up again, I'm afraid I'm gonna end up sick, jobless and completely broke.

Gahhh.... I think I really just need a hug

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