zilah's SuicideGirls Blog

i don't know... i have had such pointless pain happen to me the past few months... and part of me wants to vent and scream and whine, but then i think that so many have it worse, and that it could be worse for me... so i just go numb with alcohol and try to keep my mouth and heart shut about it all.

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spacecadet66:

Actually myself not so much into the drama.

Hope you'll be feeling better in the new year.

Dec 30, 2005

BROKEN and off to visit the family who will surely finish the job

i'll tell stories when i get back

IF i make it.

_jimmy:

you better make it!

hope to hear from you soon

Dec 24, 2005

occam:

You can always count on family to drive in that last nail....happy, happy, joy, joy

Dec 27, 2005

so here it is... my 3rd winter alone. i don't know what it is.... bad luck i suppose. i hope i make it through this one, i've lost 15 pounds in the past 2 months. don't seem to have an appetite. all i hear is you're too nice, you're too perfect, your beauty is too intimidating. lies. all i see is that i am faulty,...
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maha:

sounds like you could use a bit of cheering up. Well here goes..... It could be that you are a person of depth and maybe this makes it a difficult to have surface conversations.however, Having that feeling of affection and care is very important (no lie). In my experience it's best to keep quiet and maintain, Until you feel like it or of course or as something comes along. As for what for what you're going through, seems to me you're doing pretty well.....take care

Dec 19, 2005

_jimmy:

Im not gonna toss any cliche's at you. I've been where you are, who hasn't? Shit I'm still there at times. I've got no words of wisdom for ya, just know that there are more people like ya. This time of the year can be a real bitch.