Got back to school last Sunday. Glad to be back I guess. Livin' in "The District" 4 with a good group of fucks.Seriously, I love these guys. We've had so much fun in the past week (minus the leadership trainning bullshit).
However, there has been complications in the past week. To make a long story short, I told Whit that I am not totally sure I am ready to jump back into a relationship just yet. We were separated this summer just so I could get my head on straight. Now I thought I did, but apparently I didn't. I got back to campus and started to revel in my singleness. No, I wasn't screwing around but just being my own person without the tag of a relationship is a good feeling.
Now, I feel guilty about how I've hurt Whit. I didn't want to hurt her. I still do care about her, but I just wasn't too sure if that's really what I wanted/ needed right now. I don't know what to feel. I feel guilty although I know I should have this time right now and I need to think about myself right now, not everyone else. I just hope I am doin' the right thing and I hope she loves me enough... to stay.
However, there has been complications in the past week. To make a long story short, I told Whit that I am not totally sure I am ready to jump back into a relationship just yet. We were separated this summer just so I could get my head on straight. Now I thought I did, but apparently I didn't. I got back to campus and started to revel in my singleness. No, I wasn't screwing around but just being my own person without the tag of a relationship is a good feeling.
Now, I feel guilty about how I've hurt Whit. I didn't want to hurt her. I still do care about her, but I just wasn't too sure if that's really what I wanted/ needed right now. I don't know what to feel. I feel guilty although I know I should have this time right now and I need to think about myself right now, not everyone else. I just hope I am doin' the right thing and I hope she loves me enough... to stay.