O jesus... It is bad now. i don't know whats going on. everyday just gets worse and worse. i can't even stand to b in my own house anymore. my own house!! i feel trapped. i can't even look at my father now. he just disgusts me. me makes me sick to no end. my defenses are weakening. i feel myself falling apart with every new lie, every new story he devises. WHY IS HE DOING THIS TO HIS FAMILY!?!?!?!?! WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE THIS? WHAT HAS MY MOTHER DONE? FOR FUCKS SAKE, SOME ONE PLEASE TELL ME!!!
i remember what is was like to want to die. i lived it. i remember those nights of lying awake, wondering what i had to live for. that heaviness has returned to my heart. Though i do not wish my own death, i still find the demons of my past causing me so much pain. he was the reason for my desiring death. he hurt me in ways not son should ever have to face from his father. jesus christ, goddess above, find me safe passage into my destiny. God let me make it out of here safely...
i remember what is was like to want to die. i lived it. i remember those nights of lying awake, wondering what i had to live for. that heaviness has returned to my heart. Though i do not wish my own death, i still find the demons of my past causing me so much pain. he was the reason for my desiring death. he hurt me in ways not son should ever have to face from his father. jesus christ, goddess above, find me safe passage into my destiny. God let me make it out of here safely...
The best I can come up with is ignore him. Spend as much time away from home. Take your mom out. Be a team as much as possible. Trust in yourself.
Remember that you're not alone. And while it may be cliche, trust me, it helps. A lot.