i been riding my emotional rollercoaster fairly well lately. and i think ride ride has stop for now. so i'll wait anxiously for the next train. other than that i got a ticket today. that was exciting. last friday i met this girl can't get her outa my head. she was sooo fuck'n cooool. i've been really disconnected with almost everything and everybody since my dad kill himself that it was really nice to undersatnd somebody in the moments of silence. she mention a few time she didn't broke up with her boyfriend a few month ago, but as much as i wanted to exchange numbers. i didn't say anything. been kissing myself in the ass ever since. she even said " maybe we should keep in touch" at that moment i thought i love to. i must of look like i wanted to fart or something because then she said " but nobody really does anyway". what the fuck. the only thing that i didn't fuck up was the conversation. that part was easy. one other good thing is she knows i hang out there almost every friday. 