This christmas is over, and I've survived! Praise be! Work Christmas parties and dinners with people I used to know, and christmas eve with my boyfriend's grandmother & her girlfriend Goldie, and Christmas with my family and the rest of the man's fam... It was great. I'm so tired.
I put off stuff for the holiday until the last week really, because it didn't feel like the season to me. Now I've run silly for three days, and I've glad it's done. It really was nice to spend time with family and friends though, and that matters more than anything.
I don't really even want to think about christmas any more, and new years seems daunting at this point. There's these expectations and resolutions...all hopeful, or the other end that says "Fuck it." and just goes all out because their hopes have already been murdered.
Starting in Jan I will be doing the same work, but as a contractor through the city gov't. I'm nervous about this job, but the networking is supposed to be good, and all professional and shit. Yuck. I don't think that I do well in professional settings. I tend to just let words slip right outta my mouth, without a volume control or a check on content... this has already gotten me into trouble at this conference about a month ago... hopefullly by the new year my boss's bosses will have forgotten. "Area management plans" and volunteers and a lot more individual work are supposed to be on my plate now.... so.... I dunno what the fuck that means.
It's funny to go into each new year with whatever expectations you may have... then to look back at the end of the year, and not even be able to recall the previous year's hopes or accomplishments. It's hard not to go "Where the hell did that time go?"
However, I did make it outta UPS this past year, and I did a little more college, and I got a dog. There... three good things. Wow, those three accomplishments sure wore me out... maybe next year I'll get a fish, not a dog....
I put off stuff for the holiday until the last week really, because it didn't feel like the season to me. Now I've run silly for three days, and I've glad it's done. It really was nice to spend time with family and friends though, and that matters more than anything.
I don't really even want to think about christmas any more, and new years seems daunting at this point. There's these expectations and resolutions...all hopeful, or the other end that says "Fuck it." and just goes all out because their hopes have already been murdered.
Starting in Jan I will be doing the same work, but as a contractor through the city gov't. I'm nervous about this job, but the networking is supposed to be good, and all professional and shit. Yuck. I don't think that I do well in professional settings. I tend to just let words slip right outta my mouth, without a volume control or a check on content... this has already gotten me into trouble at this conference about a month ago... hopefullly by the new year my boss's bosses will have forgotten. "Area management plans" and volunteers and a lot more individual work are supposed to be on my plate now.... so.... I dunno what the fuck that means.
It's funny to go into each new year with whatever expectations you may have... then to look back at the end of the year, and not even be able to recall the previous year's hopes or accomplishments. It's hard not to go "Where the hell did that time go?"
However, I did make it outta UPS this past year, and I did a little more college, and I got a dog. There... three good things. Wow, those three accomplishments sure wore me out... maybe next year I'll get a fish, not a dog....