zenobia

This is for Anna even though she will never see it.

Anna,
I miss you lots everyday. I wish we could go back. Way back to when we first met and became friends. I hate how all of this turned out to be so ugly and brutal. If I could erase all the horrible and terrible things we've done to each other I would. Alas I can't change the past and we have no future as friends. I wish I could be there for you right now. I know how it feels to carry life and feel alone and despondant. I miss hearing you laugh with me and not at me. I think you are the only person who ever really got it. Deep down you and Eric are beautiful people. I hope that together you can both find that beauty again. I don't know what life has got in store for you but know that I will always care. More than anything I just wish you would stop hurting yourself and let the people who really care love you like they want to. Maybe one day you can accept the love that is offered to you.
love always
Am

the pics that go along with this journal are in my pics folder. I was unable to get them to post in this journal.