hola........last night i had a really bad panic attack and thought i was gonna die.......scary shit......the ems and fire peoples came and both were really mean to me.......so, i decided to stay at my mommys house and one of my friends that lives in the area came over to keep me company.......we ended up sitting outside for seven hours drinking whiskey.......it felt really good......i dont know how i can be in love with four girls at the same time......anyway, i had no panic attacks today and feel great......i really need to quit drinking coffee.......my birthdays on wed. and im excited cause ive never had a champagne jam for my birthday.......its gonna be the shit.......and you know what?? nobody really realizes how influential someone is till they die........my example is odb.......the most famous crackhead ever.......but, he was an amazing hip hop artist......i was jamming out to nigga please on the walk home and forgot how much i like that album.......if anyones in the carrboro area this week, we're gonna be partying all week for my birthday, so let me know.........hope everyones doing good........ 