Why?
In part, that describes me practially to a T, for how I was with a ex.
In part, it still holds some truth, for how I am.
It came from this thread, which holds quite abit of both wisdom, and good quotes to read everyday, for those (like me) who need a kick in the pants.
Sorcha said:
Tip: Being whiny/demanding will not get you a girl. If you keep thinking, "GOD... why am I ALONE... why doesn't anybody LOVE ME...," you WILL be alone.
From High Fidelity
We were frightened of being left alone for the rest of our lives. Only people of a certain disposition are frightened of being alone for the rest of their lives at the age of 26, and we were of that disposition.
jaxon81 said:
anyone heard this one?... "you must learn to love yourself, before you can love anyone else..."
and this one "at the lowest point in your life, when things cant get any worse... things will start to get better"
Dane_valek said:
I guess it's this: Don't worry about dying alone, Don't worry about dieing. Just live your life. If you meet that "Special someone": Cool. If not, you won't regret living your life the way that made you happy. Their are a lot of trivial things in this world, sort through them, and find what's important to YOU.
Clara said:
You can't force it to happen, but you can tip the odds in your favor by leaving the house, developing some interests, and talking to people about those interests, current events, and other things. Best of luck.
Dane_valek said:
If youre too insecure to be yourself around your friends, then you can't call yourself a good friend. Friends are people that are just as special as any woman, if not more important. These are the people who will help you through your problems, and hopefully make you feel better. Don't think that you can be artificial around THESE people, these are the people who should know you just as well as you know yourself.
After that, atleast to me, there wasnt to many other good quoteables... mostly the thread went all to hell.
With myself sometimes taking the helm on that one. Sweet Jesus, I need to learn to READ, THINK, POST.... maybe think more.
Not sure.
I keep remembering how I used to be, at 16, 18, 19, 21, and now.
Ive changed a lot over the years, just ask my parents. Since moving from my hometown of Prince George (born raised, aside from grade 3-4 in MacKenzie BC), a few things have happenned.
Ive managed to hold a job, as a security officer from Aug 2000, to Feb 2004. That, is no small feat, and anyone who thinks so, should walk a mile in those shoes. You generally, in one shift, at my site, would walk. about 10, per day. No shitting.
While attending AMTC/Sprott Shaw wasnt the best professional choice, it gave me the chance to come out of my shell more, meet new people, make some lifelong friends, and make me realize one thing.
I LOVE design.
Ive taken chances, like dating the bosses daughter for more then a year, and not having to keep it a secret either.
Because of that person, I did enter into AMTC, but because of her, I got emotionally fucked up.
Because of the emotional fuck ups, I started becoming more of a man. Letting go, doing some crazy things, and joining up a dating site, which started my fun for the past few months.
Since the new year, on my own, I dated 6 people.
Before that, I had only dated 3 (and one more for a week, but that doesnt count), in 5 years.
Some of those people helped change my life, show me new ideals, and give me a good push.
Most of them, I will never get to thank.
One or two, will be my friends for years.
In the past while.
Ive stopping worrying so much, and stopped whining about girls, problems.
Whats next? Standing up for myself.
Not just with girls/women, but with myself, people, work... life.
Im not interested in being overbearing, just not going to be a doormat for the rest of my life either.
Not settling for second best, because Im worth the first place.
Im a good human being, but Im not perfect. Ive known this for years.
Im worth-ful, to quote one person. Have been for quite sometime, just havent realized it.
Where does all this thought come from?
A six foot two inch, slim built, twenty three year old, white guy.
Who for his entire life, has watched, waited, though, helped, handed up/down, healed, talked, met, sat, played, fought, won, and lost many times over.
But from now on...
well, that ... would be telling wouldnt it?
Good feelings, and snags of better things yet to come.
[Edited on Sep 21, 2004 7:10PM]