So I have returned to Austin, TX. It's only been a few days and I am already disgusted by what I have seen thus far ๐:
I am working on the east side again....hoping to find some decent people like myself out here. It's been in vain. I am already finding people that do not have a solid education, constantly worrying about their child support and/or alimony, and a lot of them are somewhat unhealthy.
I actually thought with the whole gentrification thing going on, there would be more - stable people from all colors. But it's worse โน๏ธ. The vibe alone is toxic in itself. Yeah, I say this for a lot of my people. I feel I somehow fell into a remnant of the old Austin East Side reputation. Everyone over there just settling for whatever comes across their way - if anything. My ancestors didn't fight for all of these past centuries just to settle. When was the last time one has heard of the term 'nuclear family' lately ๐ค? I know the common structure of family has changed pretty drastically in the last 3 decades alone - not hating towards the same sex marriages here btw, but for my people I feel as though a lot of us has forgotten what it means to be human ๐๐โน๏ธ. Every black person now has to be all hood rich and shit - NO WE FUCKING DON'T ๐ !!!!! That NOT what we have been fighting for: my ancestors from Africa that were enslaved, raped, prohibited from their rights as people for the past 2.5 centuries - didn't just decided to lay back and go quietly into the night. We had to fight. MLK, Malcolm X, and yes even the King of Pop Michael Jackson - decided to do the right thing which of course included sacrifice. No way around that - none. If anything, we need to be more than we what we are composed of for a better life.
Someone NEEDS to remind my people of that.
In addition to my own reasons as to why I came back are two: my family - and to dump off all of this crap that I have been holding on to for at least a decade collectively. I have been wronged so much that I need to be righted. For a while I thought it was me and I was just going to keep running away....until last December I was reminded why I ran from Austin in the first place. How many times has the truth been tucked underneath the rug in my life? There have been way too many fucking times that shit has been happening in my life ๐ - no more ๐ ๐ ๐ !!!!!!! I'm going to make the truth known for once in how I feel about things. I am a human being too and I demand to get some โฅ๏ธ around this town for once!!!!!! At the very least some understanding is in order governing my very name.
Wish Me Luck ๐!!!!!!!!