Last night, I started writing again. I suddenly saw this pattern of self-doubt emerge that's has kept me from completing anything for quite some time. I think it's why I've been writing half-assed poetry. It's easy to finish and if no one understands what I am saying, hell it's poetry. Anyway, the pattern, I've been holding onto ideas that I haven't finished as if I...
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now what comes to mind is like the end of time
as you pass through to another existence all together
what you step into is like changing trains at high speeds
as they pass each other going opposite directions
the force of everything just flip-flops
and you devolve
loose with so little time holding you down
you simplify down to virtually nothing
and then like...
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as you pass through to another existence all together
what you step into is like changing trains at high speeds
as they pass each other going opposite directions
the force of everything just flip-flops
and you devolve
loose with so little time holding you down
you simplify down to virtually nothing
and then like...
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a tangle of calamities twisted into a knot constricting the flow of truth.
memories fade into view
faint light in a dark room
set the stage, give the cue
a young boy
a bike
some thing
a small stern face
looking on in self-digust
transfering hate
like kisses of fists and words
each leaving their mark
in the present moment
but far removed
by the...
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memories fade into view
faint light in a dark room
set the stage, give the cue
a young boy
a bike
some thing
a small stern face
looking on in self-digust
transfering hate
like kisses of fists and words
each leaving their mark
in the present moment
but far removed
by the...
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ambrosio:
Hey, my man. Glad you're getting some lucidity. I've been out of the dream/OBE thingtoo much going on, need all of what little sleep I get right now. Classes: yeah, I'm teaching them along w/ some other members, also starting a study group. Not as fun as praxis (ie, group ritual), but a good way to get out of my own head for a while. Speaking of, sounds like you have some heavy stuff happening in yours. I don't have any great insights, but I sincerely hope you sort it out, friend. Ttys.
drave:
IM sad that I didnt see you at the concert!!! Im really sad. I was in row A. in the middle and I hung out on the lawn for the first opening band.
Trent looks so different with his shaved head.
Trent looks so different with his shaved head.
Another night of clay with my niece. She was so into it. She looked so relaxed as she craffed tiny pieces of clay to make a considerably detailed flower pot with twisting vines and leafy plants and petals. It's amazing that with her here as a mirror to my existence, that I am beginning to see myself not as a loose construct in my head,...
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chai:
sounds good this way for you!! happy to ehar that!! lots of love! 
chai:
oh no ... i dont htink that there is a need to go to a therapy for that... hmmm. i dont know for u exactly, but i think some things u have to cope on ur own... talking with a good friend is so much better, u r right!! i often make the mistake and dont tell my friends about my real feelings... dont know why .... 
hopw that u are finding what u are looking for too!!!!! lots of love
hopw that u are finding what u are looking for too!!!!! lots of loveTotally amazingly simple and fun day. It just lacked real hassle. Strolled into work at 10am with their approval. Goofed off most of the day. Sidestepped a dumbass business partner to avoid unncessary conflict. Flirted. then got off early to fix ribs, corn, and potato salad with my niece all for the nastalgia of being at home on memorial day growing up, cooking out and...
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kundalini:
Be a good uncle. So many kids have no one to look up to.
drave:
Wow. U are such a good uncle.
And the tool videos seem to confuse a lot of people. LoL. I love them so much.. so much meaning and beauty.
I think trying to help her become a strong woman is very very important
And the tool videos seem to confuse a lot of people. LoL. I love them so much.. so much meaning and beauty.
I think trying to help her become a strong woman is very very important
I am feeling increasingly removed from my sense of self and at the same time accutely more aware that my previous sense of self was a complete sham.
My niece is here. I've been focusing a great deal of attention upon her and the HBO series SIX FEET UNDER seasons 1 and 2 (3-5 to follow). I've been buying more art supplies than using them....
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My niece is here. I've been focusing a great deal of attention upon her and the HBO series SIX FEET UNDER seasons 1 and 2 (3-5 to follow). I've been buying more art supplies than using them....
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necia:
Six Feet Under is a great fucking show. I actually had to leave the room during the finale so I didn't lose it entirely and start weeping like an idiot. 
As far as Ani goes . . . As far as I'm concerned, she can do pretty much whatever she likes--fake bootlegs included. Ani almost always remains entirely above reproach in my eyes.
(Basically, I think part of the bootleg thing is that she'd already released two live double-discs--but she's too fucking amazing live not to record and release more.)
As far as Ani goes . . . As far as I'm concerned, she can do pretty much whatever she likes--fake bootlegs included. Ani almost always remains entirely above reproach in my eyes.
(Basically, I think part of the bootleg thing is that she'd already released two live double-discs--but she's too fucking amazing live not to record and release more.)
I just had one of the most awesome sex dreams I've ever had. I was at home looking out my window when I noticed what seemed to be a slew of SG's partying naked across the street. From every angle and vantage point all I could see where naked sex crazed SGs. As I left to explore, it became a girls only hotel. I wasn't...
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necia:
Ah, see, it's through the firm where my parents work. I've been one of the go-to kids for miscellaneous projects no one has time to do for years, so that's how I got in on it. It wouldn't be a from-home job if they had open computers in the office, but apparently they don't. 
addlepatedwight:
About once a year I have a great sex dream. I should write them down. I forget a couple day after.
Those guys from Uganda are so nice and energetic. I think they definitely are being taken advantage of.
The period of this deployment can never be set in stone. For now the return looks to be in September.
Later
Those guys from Uganda are so nice and energetic. I think they definitely are being taken advantage of.
The period of this deployment can never be set in stone. For now the return looks to be in September.
Later
Going to Ohio
where all the cornfields look the same
going to ohio
to make me feel sane
I am going to ohio
because my mom will kill me if I don't.
Passive aggressive parental guilt. Yum.
Update:
Now I am in ohio
all the cornfields have sprouted houses
now I am in ohio
I remember why I left
now I am in ohio
distance...
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where all the cornfields look the same
going to ohio
to make me feel sane
I am going to ohio
because my mom will kill me if I don't.
Passive aggressive parental guilt. Yum.
Update:
Now I am in ohio
all the cornfields have sprouted houses
now I am in ohio
I remember why I left
now I am in ohio
distance...
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pastura:
i don't see the apocolypse in the photo. i just couldn't find anything else to post. but i suppose... it does represent the little life, the life that might make it long after the rest of us have killed one another.
yes, fort wayne. never been. sorry you have.
and i think it would certainly be neat to see the world through the eyes of a great writer, to follow him/her around for a few days. give you added insight into what you read. but probably not a horny writer. that'd be bad. strange to think of ginsberg as still alive. he's forever linked in my mind with The Merry Pranksters and also Jack Kerouac.
yes, fort wayne. never been. sorry you have.
and i think it would certainly be neat to see the world through the eyes of a great writer, to follow him/her around for a few days. give you added insight into what you read. but probably not a horny writer. that'd be bad. strange to think of ginsberg as still alive. he's forever linked in my mind with The Merry Pranksters and also Jack Kerouac.
necia:
Now what?
Beer, of course!
Beer, of course!
I am feeling less than poetic at the moment. So here's something that says what I am thinking.
reflection Tool from Lateralus
I have come curiously close to the end, down
Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole,
Defeated, I concede and
Move closer
I may find comfort here
I may find peace within the emptiness
How pitiful
It's calling me...
And in my darkest moment, fetal...
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reflection Tool from Lateralus
I have come curiously close to the end, down
Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole,
Defeated, I concede and
Move closer
I may find comfort here
I may find peace within the emptiness
How pitiful
It's calling me...
And in my darkest moment, fetal...
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necia:
Yeah, I'm not allowed to take any more political science courses--I think I'm slightly over the limit on the amount of credits from a single department one can count toward graduation. So this past year I've had to take one poli sci seminar each semester, to complete the major, and then three classes of whatever's as far away from poli sci as I can get.
kundalini:
Reflection made me break down in tears the first time I sat down and absorbed the lyrics.
Brace the door
call for reinforcements
there's a monster coming
with claws like ages
of accumulated cages
each holding one of my fears
call for reinforcements
there's a monster coming
with claws like ages
of accumulated cages
each holding one of my fears
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pastura:
i'm in a mood, so this is going to be a bad comment. sit, comment. lie down. good. speak, comment. speak! speak dammit! bad, bad, comment.
a-hem. last tom show got rained out for the most part anyway. glad i didn't lose the money on it cause i would have been in the lawn. good for you for writing poetry - i haven't written anything since the last poem i posted. why did your prof keep the picture? i hope you're getting paid... i had an interview today, too. tired of this shit. no more interviews. if i don't get this one, i think i'm going to go off the grid.
i'm in a mood, so this is going to be a bad comment. sit, comment. lie down. good. speak, comment. speak! speak dammit! bad, bad, comment.
a-hem. last tom show got rained out for the most part anyway. glad i didn't lose the money on it cause i would have been in the lawn. good for you for writing poetry - i haven't written anything since the last poem i posted. why did your prof keep the picture? i hope you're getting paid... i had an interview today, too. tired of this shit. no more interviews. if i don't get this one, i think i'm going to go off the grid.
ataxia:
hey babe
pics!
go
go now
pics!
go
go now
I've always had the hardest time writing actual stories. Maybe what you just described is why I always stuck to poetry. *sigh*
We should start an SG writer's workshop, with weekly topics and themes and exercises and whatnot, if there isn't one already. It would give all of us who are stuck the chance to just write some shit and get it out there and see what happens, you know?