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What a wasted sack of flesh I have made of my life. I wake up begrudgingly facing the day without an agenda. I temper over how late can I go into work and still make enough to survive. At work, I maneuver myself in such a way as make it through the day having achieved as little as possible while making the day go as...
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ataxia:
isnt it funny how you can THINK so hard and so long in the complete wrong direction. and of course, the universe will always show you the truth.....and you always feel like a jjackass for thinking the way you did. altho the cool part is i believe its just a way for the universe to show us how our thinking can OFTEN be wrong. sooooo take from this an oportunity to reevaluate a few of the things you consider "established thinking". it sounds like you need it 
love you babe
love you babe
una:
Ha! I'm glad I can be blamed for something! I always have vivid dreams but they're not very grounded usually so I don't think about them too much. That one in my journal left me fealling pretty content. I remember walking slowly behind my friend - he always walks too fast for short little me - and holding my hands out like I was looking at the water from my dream. I didn't talk about it till later, I was still "in it" a bit but I wasn't trying to be, I was just paying attention to the fact that I was still not fully invested in waking reality, I was a bit somewhere else.
I was devinately off in the eather after last school year and my Japan visit. It tok me two weeks of doing nothing except watching bad blockbuster movies and reading about Goddess worship and Celtic Shamenism to get over it and be grounded agian. Now I'm totally not stressed about moving and my goals here in my real life. I advise taking a break from all, and I mean ALL goals, for a while and doing something that stabilizes you at a completely relaxed pace. For me I read about something that I wanted to do but I didn't stress about doing what the readings recomended. Meh, we all go down hill somethimes and I definately think through my problems and go off the hook sometimes.
Hurray for positive thinking! It gets easier with practice
I was devinately off in the eather after last school year and my Japan visit. It tok me two weeks of doing nothing except watching bad blockbuster movies and reading about Goddess worship and Celtic Shamenism to get over it and be grounded agian. Now I'm totally not stressed about moving and my goals here in my real life. I advise taking a break from all, and I mean ALL goals, for a while and doing something that stabilizes you at a completely relaxed pace. For me I read about something that I wanted to do but I didn't stress about doing what the readings recomended. Meh, we all go down hill somethimes and I definately think through my problems and go off the hook sometimes.
Hurray for positive thinking! It gets easier with practice
Life:
I've been talking to Ataxia quite a bit lately. She is a wonderful woman. Made life way more interesting. Looking forward to visiting with her. In fact, my "friendship" with a few of you has gotten stronger and more interesting, and with Drave continues to grow. I am quite lucky where SG friends are concerned. Thank you all.
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pastura:
well i hope you had a nice safe and rather un-midwestern time in ohio. i think a healthy portion of us spend more time being who we wish we were than who we really are - in other words, we act. but then again, dreams are just another form of reality. babbling already? goodness, and that was only three sentences! well, i guess i get all literarily constipated when i only have a few minutes here every other week...
necia:
I feel ENTIRELY the same way about spoilers. They're an added bit of fun.
Hope all is well with you, being all internet deprived as you're going to be for the next week. I think I'd be going into withdrawals, sadly enough.
Hope all is well with you, being all internet deprived as you're going to be for the next week. I think I'd be going into withdrawals, sadly enough.
The Asphyxiated Six:
these heliocentric creeps
falling from blessed combustion
(lost, needing fate to open wounds)
A conductive nightmare crew
scribbling intergalactic dialogues
describing fragrant blackholes
set the coordinates:
begin.
pursued naked
she is negatively subdued
in the throws of mental collision
fuel clouds in crushed eyes
gliding in a dream
repeating suggestions with wry language
to alleviate the scribes.
shipwrecked
pressing on
her heart...
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these heliocentric creeps
falling from blessed combustion
(lost, needing fate to open wounds)
A conductive nightmare crew
scribbling intergalactic dialogues
describing fragrant blackholes
set the coordinates:
begin.
pursued naked
she is negatively subdued
in the throws of mental collision
fuel clouds in crushed eyes
gliding in a dream
repeating suggestions with wry language
to alleviate the scribes.
shipwrecked
pressing on
her heart...
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addlepatedwight:
Isn't that from Vanilla Ice?
ataxia:
time for a new journal entry
so I read an interview with Pharrell. He seems interesting, so I thought I would check out some of his newer stuff off his new CD. After listening to a few tracks, I had to stop. I had these words singing in my head that wouldn't let me hear a word he was singing. And for some dictation from, er...wherever:
my heart is beating
it's...
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it's...
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drave:
I think that its nice. LoL @ Madonna throw away. I dont think that.
How have you been lately?
Ive been okay bizzy with work and trying to clean this house up.
Anyways I thought about you today. And I was thinking how awesome and sweet it is to have someone that always trys to give you advice. U really do help.
How have you been lately?
Ive been okay bizzy with work and trying to clean this house up.
Anyways I thought about you today. And I was thinking how awesome and sweet it is to have someone that always trys to give you advice. U really do help.
necia:
David Lynch, man. Interesting guy, I have no doubt--one would have to be interesting and unusual to make those kinds of movies.
The phantom message disappeared after a little bit. Kinda weird, but it happens. How are you?
The phantom message disappeared after a little bit. Kinda weird, but it happens.
How are you?idealistic tantrum
given a day
a night or more
I would still remain
a child whore
I would rape my parents
my sitters
my grandparents
give me my money
before I tear out your tummy
mummy feed me
give me my greed
I want what you've got
a lot more than what's in the pot
of gold I choose 24
pure to the last pour...
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una:
Hahaha!! That's what I should have said indeed. It is my usual pickup line - surprise surprise!
I was feeling a bit worthless for sitting around all day downloading and watching the last few episodes of the second seasons of LOST. So, I decided to get out for a bit to rent a DVD and buy some lemons to make lemonaide. At the grocery store, Melinda, the 18yr old daughter of a guy I work with was my checkout clerk. She and...
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necia:
I'm TOTALLY a Radiohead fan! I haven't checked out Thom Yorke's album yet, but I plan to.
una:
Ha! I've totally given up on finding the "one". I think I've found the one every time but then I always loose interest no matter how great they are, I just need veriety. It's a horrible thing to say but I think it's true. thats just me though. However, there was this one guy that was in my philosophy discussion group last term that I was very taken with. there was the similar problem though of I didn't know what to say to introduce myself - we talked a little but at the end of the term that was it. I hope I wasn't blatantly staring at him too much 
hehe
heheWhat we want, we attract, be it consciously
or subconsciously. What we don't want,
we also attract. What we choose to
focus our thoughts on, we attract - positive and negative" -*....OR NOTHING.
*edited for Kundalini
or subconsciously. What we don't want,
we also attract. What we choose to
focus our thoughts on, we attract - positive and negative" -*....OR NOTHING.
*edited for Kundalini
kundalini:
Interesting perception. I, however, seem to attract nothing.
joetheho:
faramones. think happy thought and clear your head and you might end up geting a giant marshmellow man
Friday, I was up into the wee hours of night having a random life discussion with my bestfriend from ohio on IM. I'll spare you the wondering details, but at the end we both agreed to write a finished 1st draft a novel by July 10th. We plan to prod each along, poke and instigate each other to completion. I can do that, only problem...
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necia:
That whole pen bit cracked me up.
(And thank you for the compliments. )
See, if you'll notice, the really charming guys didn't say, "Nice boobs, come visit!" They just said, "Come visit!"
I don't even fully understand the boob comments; my boobs haven't seen the light of day on this here website. In fact, I only have one picture on here that shows even vaguely more than my head and neck. It makes no sense. They're inviting mystery boobs to come visit--and that seems like a bad idea to me . . .
(And thank you for the compliments.
)
See, if you'll notice, the really charming guys didn't say, "Nice boobs, come visit!" They just said, "Come visit!"
I don't even fully understand the boob comments; my boobs haven't seen the light of day on this here website. In fact, I only have one picture on here that shows even vaguely more than my head and neck. It makes no sense. They're inviting mystery boobs to come visit--and that seems like a bad idea to me . . .
necia:
Oh, if your cat's spelling shit out for you, I'd say you'd better heed her demands. That's an advanced cat, right there. 
I've come to realize something about perception. Our conscious (language based) assessment of our response to sensory and dream experience is potentially detrimental in relation to how we actually learn. In any given interaction our senses create biochemical adjustments in the mind-body (brain, physical body, consciousnes) in reaction to the actions it takes in response to stimuli. (action-reaction). From these we learn how to respond...
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pastura:
the crazy thing was, we saw another fawn curled up against another gravestone on the other side of the cemetery - and this is one huge cemetery. there's actually really great wildlife watching in the fields of the dead around here. once saw a fox running through an old jewish cemetery.
i would definitely not feel bad about telling you to get that book. i just noticed the sub-title is: quotations of astonishment and wonder. and that's what it is. some of the quotes are a little ho-hum, and some i don't get, but mostly i just sit there with this big grin on my face and this incredible feeling in my chest after every quote i read. plus, it's great for sending you off on mental tangents... obviously. were you my friend back in the day when i posted my essay called The Constant Yearning about how maybe the "god-shaped hole in our hearts" is really just our bodies and our "souls" trying to get back into harmony with the universe of which we are a part? maybe you were, maybe you weren't, but that whole essay was inspired by a quote in this book. what is Art & Fear about?
and dear, don't move back to ohio. the midwest isn't worth it. especially that evil, evil red state.
i would definitely not feel bad about telling you to get that book. i just noticed the sub-title is: quotations of astonishment and wonder. and that's what it is. some of the quotes are a little ho-hum, and some i don't get, but mostly i just sit there with this big grin on my face and this incredible feeling in my chest after every quote i read. plus, it's great for sending you off on mental tangents... obviously. were you my friend back in the day when i posted my essay called The Constant Yearning about how maybe the "god-shaped hole in our hearts" is really just our bodies and our "souls" trying to get back into harmony with the universe of which we are a part? maybe you were, maybe you weren't, but that whole essay was inspired by a quote in this book. what is Art & Fear about?
and dear, don't move back to ohio. the midwest isn't worth it. especially that evil, evil red state.
kundalini:
Are you using drugs again?
Yes. Yes and Yes. Ask a few people - you'll quickly see that we construct our own reality, and in turn, create and shift memories to better suit present conceptions.
Your post makes me glad that I'm not the only person who has thought about all this shit and come to these types of conclusions.
Yes. Yes and Yes. Ask a few people - you'll quickly see that we construct our own reality, and in turn, create and shift memories to better suit present conceptions.
Your post makes me glad that I'm not the only person who has thought about all this shit and come to these types of conclusions.
And damnit why have I been so bizzy in the last week? Geezuz.. lol.. Ive gone into the shop everyday! Im soo tired.
How have you been?