zef

I float out the window
and watch everything go by
I see all my fears
like clouds up in the sky
I wonder if it will rain
I feel like I could cry
but nothing comes but the wind
and it blows it all away
after all of these years
I've forgotten how to pray
Where is the rainbow?
how do I get to find the other side
looking out the window
waiting for my time to die.

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It was like yesterday
I found you there
glistening and all smiles
for a time, it made me think
that there was more to all of this than pain
but what you taught me
what I learned for myself
is that nothing hurts more
than what you do to yourself

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no bed of roses
no crown of thorns
no wind swept streets
no field of stones
no hands to hold
no fingers intertwined
no thing to feel
but the absence it fills me
one speck of dust at a time
soon I'll be home
to the grass that grows over me
to the earth and the stone
And I'll be like memories
that always seem to fade
when you want to remember
so it just causes you more pain
as you struggle to remember why
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Where are you
The one who loves
and doesn't ask why
the one who upholds
their words as little promises
too small to break
one step at a time
leading us out of the dark
not to save us
but to share a moment
that makes us smile
like a field of flowers
just aching to be in the sun
We'll find each other
no matter how far
this day will be as stars
leading ships through the night
on the day we meet
atom bombs in our hearts
there will be no one else
just the love in our eyes
we'll bless the world
for all that it gives us
and then there will be others
who will weave what's right

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just trying to put the past behind me, so I can see tomorrow for what it is.