did you ever notice that sometimes life sucks for no reason whatsoever. Mostly when you just avoid living it. Like I am doing right now. Yup, that's right. If it weren't for this damn breathing heart pounding brain activity and laws of physics shit I wouldn't even exist. The worst part is I can't figure out why I am avoiding it.
I've been downloading music, stuff I've never heard before and I like it.
Tomorrow, I am going to smack life across the face or wait is that let life smack me across the face? fuck it, there's going to be a lot of face smacking. All this talk of smacking that reminds me of one crazy night of sex with my ex.....mmmm. memories.
Am I sure that life sucks? It doesn't really seem like it sucks. hmmm. Maybe I've only been fooling myself into thinking that life sucks. Wait, I think I hear something...oh no that's just the sound of life sucking.
I'd better end this journal entry now otherwise... I'll start talking about: severed limbs and broken angel halo hymns, with fetus licking ladies singing burnt umber melodies of their old convicted felonies, bent at the knees throwing up obsenities all over their wife beater tees. that's right sometimes I suck like that.
I've been downloading music, stuff I've never heard before and I like it.
Tomorrow, I am going to smack life across the face or wait is that let life smack me across the face? fuck it, there's going to be a lot of face smacking. All this talk of smacking that reminds me of one crazy night of sex with my ex.....mmmm. memories.
Am I sure that life sucks? It doesn't really seem like it sucks. hmmm. Maybe I've only been fooling myself into thinking that life sucks. Wait, I think I hear something...oh no that's just the sound of life sucking.
I'd better end this journal entry now otherwise... I'll start talking about: severed limbs and broken angel halo hymns, with fetus licking ladies singing burnt umber melodies of their old convicted felonies, bent at the knees throwing up obsenities all over their wife beater tees. that's right sometimes I suck like that.
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you'll have to let me know what you decide about Buddhism. i'd love to find something in it, but i'm so disillusioned with every named religion. i have a little pocket book of the Tao which i'd crack opent o any page and read from time to time, till i finally started in the beginning and found i disliked a lot of what it said - keeping the masses ignorant for the greater happiness. maybe i'm too western for that, but it pricked my sense of indviduality and desire to learn. too bad.
you know, i'd say i get to King's Island about every other year, but i thought they still had the canoes last time i went. didn't ride them because, as i've gotten older, i find wandering around the park with squishy shoes and heavy jeans to be less enjoyable. and unfortunately, i burned that calendar a long time ago. no trace of those bloody months, thank god. i'd rather pretend that year never existed.
a-hem, you want the gory details? the London Double-Decker is a homemade invention involving yours truly, face down helping herself to... herself, with someone else sitting on top, helping as well and also helping him/herself. there's probably no good way of explaining it, and i'm NOT posting sketches!
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