zechariah

I keep memories of places I dont remember being. running through ankle deep streams to misty waterfalls that wash through my childhood. Of shallow reefs and mountains of barreling water that fuel me to propel myself forward as fast as my small legs can move. I find suicidal words written by a child forced to be a man before he was allowed to be a boy, mourning his hero and raising himself with violence. I watch dreams change from the sweet gifts of his new love to the lonely ice covered road on which he will some day end his trip. I count the lines on the hands held out flat trying to decipher the reminders of pain from the badges of pride. I Feel the smooth red curves of a guitar Im afraid to clean, because how am I to know if Im wiping away my fresh fingerprints or the greased impressions of the truckdriver who surely sat it in his lap just moments before I lost him. I see years of wondering why the person I love the most, left, turning to wishing i could tell him of the new person i have been given and knowing he would approve. I see a young man who is nowhere happier than when walking barefoot through the rain, knowing that in just a matter of days his life will be forever better. I know that in order to be the man I am meant to be, I need to start being the man I should have made myself into quite some time ago. For the first time in a very long time I know where I am, I know who I am, I know what I want, I know how to make it happen, and I like myself. Lets just hope it lasts.

Ok first of I posted the second drawing I did for Kiscica in my pics. Its not that great but feel free to look.

Uhm what else.

Oh my doc says my back is healing faster than he could have imagined and that Im ok to lift things and work and basically do anything I want (except fall down stairs holding a TV).

I am Going to try and go visit Kar here sometime soon. Shes a great girl and I am really happy we're friends.

hmmmm what else? There was something else I wanted to say. hmmm what was that?

OH yeah!

MY GIRL IS COMING TO VISIT ME (YAY!) IN LIKE TWO WEEKS (DOUBLE YAY)!!!!! This is honestly the best thing that has ever happened to me (seriously) Im gonna hug her and kiss her for like 2 hours without letting go, then follow that with random hugs and kisses for the next day. Im so in love with her and I CAN"T WAIT!

)Yeah right like i really forgot that for a second. )

Oh and she said I could put up the drawing she did for me so as soon as my lame computer lets me edit the size I'll put it up.

PS named and themed the chopper (but may change it as it progresses) a red phoenix will adorn the tank and the name "Ashes Rise" will follow.
ok I'll will of course add more but Im tired so.

THATS ALL!!!

Zechariah

thats all thats all thats all.