zazie

why is it
that everytime i check peoples lj's.

I always get so fucken pissed.

Im a good person.

im nice, im caring, im there, im friendly, i love.

what more is needed.

all the people I HATE.

seem to be succeeding in life.

that so FUCKEN BLOWS!

because they're not even good. people.

i just wish half of you would open your eyes and realize this.

tina and becky i miss you.

not like you read this anymore.

anyone I have MILD interaction with lives in other states.

so i sit at home. on the computer.

or at work in the sun, potting plants.

to occupy my time.

id like to see half of you who bitch about your office jobs try to handle mine.

oh and Im not pmsing.

i need to let off some steam.

my grandmas not doing any better, she wants to live at home now. so she can "quote" die in peace:/

my aunt I dont know the story, she has lung cancer.
shes a bad person but she doesnt deserve yo die. god

and my ex. buuuuuuuuuuuuuuh *shakes head* i love you and i hope you are doing well. but i dont know what much there is to say if you're dying.

god im so bad at this. >_<

i feel tainted.

i need to cleanse. my sins, my soul, my anger, my hate, my headaches, my heart, anything and/or anything that can make me twitch like i've taken so much acid in my life everytime i move my neck it's another acid trip.


i can handle death once in a while.
but in threes, all the time.

EH!!!!!!!!!!!

>_<

AND people!

but i dont care. read about my life.

doesnt bother me.

if people dont like me for who i am, then I guess they don't know me pretty well.

im a really good person, and anytime anyone has everEVER needed me. Im there.

so go on make your rumors, talk your shit, laugh at me.

it's ok.

becuase when you come to that time in your life where threats, rocks, beatings, and any other form of physical/emotional abuse has made you so completely numb to ANYTHING.

you're so paranoid, and skitish.

that you just dont care.

im leaving for ohio again soon. im only down for a short time in the summer.

if you want to hang out ill be here.

email me or something.

+dancethedance,butalwaysrememberthewalkalwayskillsyourheart+

p.s is I FUCKEN HATE YOU.

now that were done with that, ahemmm.