zazie

I didn't get that job I REALLY wanted & needed more then anything. I am dealing with temptation right now. And it's not pretty. All this dissapointment makes me want to linger back to my bad habbits, ie-smoking:pot and or cigs, drinking-used to be a alcoholic,like whoa, doing drugs- anything except shooting up.

I'm scared at times like these.
There's no one around to help me but myself. And I can't help myself when all I want to do is snort, shoot and slice. I'm not suicidle. No where near it. I'm just really scared. I need something in my life to make me feel an ounce of worth. To make me smile again and mean it.

hold me...

PleasE?