OK, Its been a while, Because I haven't known what to say. I get tired of my own complaining, and unfortunately thats what this site has been for me. I can't vent on facebook, people get angry, upset, or whatever, and I don't need that crap. I know it doesn't really matter, but I get tired of people bitching at me for venting. So this is where I vented, but thats not really what I want to be doing. So lets see, whats been going on.
We finally had the SG westmichigan bowling get together. An oops on the alley, but we still had an awesome time, made new friends, and we're planning more stuff, so thats good, and exactly what I wanted to have happen. Work has been on again off again busy, but Its just not paying the bills. I'm thinking its time to move on already to a new shop, try an independent maybe, or figure out what career to switch to, because being a mechanic, even for Mercedes, is not paying what it ought to.
Living at home is still kind of a drag, but I'm working on it. I think I'll be getting Kirin's couch, and that will help me set up a gaming/ movie watching area outside of my dads usual area. Maybe then Friends may come here, hang out, chill out, or at least I'd feel like I could have people over, not that I can't now, but we have nowhere to go that isn't right where my dad usually is, and as cool as he is, he's not my favorite social guest.
On the girl front, nothing. I'm a social person, but not with strangers, so I meet people through friends, I don't just walk up to the cute girl in the bar, and start talking. This is going to be an issue I'm betting. Its weird, I have so many friends, and so many of them are girls, but you put me with a girl I find attractive, and don't already know, and I'm shy as a mouse. Its stupid really, I know who I am, I know what I am, I know what I'm about, but I just don't know what to say to a girl. I hate "hitting" on a girl, I don't just want to sleep with a girl, but if you're talking them up in a bar thats what they think, thats probably why I don't just talk to them, no matter what you say you'll come off wrong. So I'd rather just stay quiet. bah, its stupid. Dating sucks.
Now then, Its Mothers day, never really a great day for me, My mother passed away 12 years ago, my grandmother, the one I ever knew, passed away two years ago now, and my ex has my kiddo. So yea, just trying to stay motivated to get some stuff done around here, like setting up my entertainment area. That and keeping in touch with Ms.Kirin her ex husband is moving out today, its what she wanted, but its still a hard transition. I've been there before, so I'm just trying to keep her spirits up. Shes going on to bigger and better things, she has a good guy she's been seeing, and so she'll be fine. I know it, I'm just trying to make her know it too. Silly girl. Anywho hope you all are enjoying the beautiful day outside! Happy Mothers day!
--Z
We finally had the SG westmichigan bowling get together. An oops on the alley, but we still had an awesome time, made new friends, and we're planning more stuff, so thats good, and exactly what I wanted to have happen. Work has been on again off again busy, but Its just not paying the bills. I'm thinking its time to move on already to a new shop, try an independent maybe, or figure out what career to switch to, because being a mechanic, even for Mercedes, is not paying what it ought to.
Living at home is still kind of a drag, but I'm working on it. I think I'll be getting Kirin's couch, and that will help me set up a gaming/ movie watching area outside of my dads usual area. Maybe then Friends may come here, hang out, chill out, or at least I'd feel like I could have people over, not that I can't now, but we have nowhere to go that isn't right where my dad usually is, and as cool as he is, he's not my favorite social guest.
On the girl front, nothing. I'm a social person, but not with strangers, so I meet people through friends, I don't just walk up to the cute girl in the bar, and start talking. This is going to be an issue I'm betting. Its weird, I have so many friends, and so many of them are girls, but you put me with a girl I find attractive, and don't already know, and I'm shy as a mouse. Its stupid really, I know who I am, I know what I am, I know what I'm about, but I just don't know what to say to a girl. I hate "hitting" on a girl, I don't just want to sleep with a girl, but if you're talking them up in a bar thats what they think, thats probably why I don't just talk to them, no matter what you say you'll come off wrong. So I'd rather just stay quiet. bah, its stupid. Dating sucks.
Now then, Its Mothers day, never really a great day for me, My mother passed away 12 years ago, my grandmother, the one I ever knew, passed away two years ago now, and my ex has my kiddo. So yea, just trying to stay motivated to get some stuff done around here, like setting up my entertainment area. That and keeping in touch with Ms.Kirin her ex husband is moving out today, its what she wanted, but its still a hard transition. I've been there before, so I'm just trying to keep her spirits up. Shes going on to bigger and better things, she has a good guy she's been seeing, and so she'll be fine. I know it, I'm just trying to make her know it too. Silly girl. Anywho hope you all are enjoying the beautiful day outside! Happy Mothers day!
--Z