263520 minutes since my soulmate passed out of this life, and into the great beyond. Six months of lost plans, lost dreams, of hiding my true feelings, and hating every moment of it. She was truly my other half, and I will miss her forever I am sure. I feel like I'm ready to try to move onward, try new relationships, mostly I fear that if I don't start soon, the fears of being alone, being 29, and being a part time parent who is stuck living at home is going to condemn me forever to scattered crappy relationships with people I don't really like.
This girl wasn't my wife, she's why my wife threw me out, She was a great friend for a long time who was in her own relationship, to someone who was abusive to her, but was a good friend to her as well. Neither of us felt love in our marriages, and things just ended up going a way neither of us planned or foresaw. I'm so glad to have had what I had, and to have shared the times I did. I know whats possible, I know what can be. I just don't know if it can happen twice.
So few people know what went on, every i think suspects, but few know for sure. so I can't put my feelings out there like I would normally, One reason I'm so thankful for SG these days, I can put them here, and at least get them out.
This week otherwise has been interesting. I need to message all the west michigan peeps and see who can go bowling this saturday, I had a lot of excitement for it, and it seems to have dwindled down. I shall reignite the fire, and at least get it going, once, twice, then when people know each other, I think it will be much easier.
Now back to standing around, waiting to see if Kirin calls cuz her car keeps doing funny things, or if she makes it fine and dandy to her destination. I do need to check her car out before her upcoming long road trip. Silly girl in her muscle car driving 400 miles with these gas prices. oh the things people do for good sex. LOL
ok, enough. back to work. hope all you people are well.
--Z
This girl wasn't my wife, she's why my wife threw me out, She was a great friend for a long time who was in her own relationship, to someone who was abusive to her, but was a good friend to her as well. Neither of us felt love in our marriages, and things just ended up going a way neither of us planned or foresaw. I'm so glad to have had what I had, and to have shared the times I did. I know whats possible, I know what can be. I just don't know if it can happen twice.
So few people know what went on, every i think suspects, but few know for sure. so I can't put my feelings out there like I would normally, One reason I'm so thankful for SG these days, I can put them here, and at least get them out.
This week otherwise has been interesting. I need to message all the west michigan peeps and see who can go bowling this saturday, I had a lot of excitement for it, and it seems to have dwindled down. I shall reignite the fire, and at least get it going, once, twice, then when people know each other, I think it will be much easier.
Now back to standing around, waiting to see if Kirin calls cuz her car keeps doing funny things, or if she makes it fine and dandy to her destination. I do need to check her car out before her upcoming long road trip. Silly girl in her muscle car driving 400 miles with these gas prices. oh the things people do for good sex. LOL
ok, enough. back to work. hope all you people are well.
--Z
Thanks for changing my oil while I dealt with my phone. And buying me frozen custard. And keeping me company while the guys at Verizon tried to figure out WTF was wrong with my phone the first time I went in. And for talking me out of buying a new phone I don't really need.
Yes, you will need to try to figure out the mystery squeaks and groans that my car is making. Poor Milly is getting old.
Life has some bizarre, almost cruel twists at times.
Nice to comment-meet you, btw.