zaraphin

A co-worker recently said she's thinks I'm a much happier person now than I was four years ago when she first met me. It's true I'm happier and more satisfied with my life now than I was four years ago. I'm actually making goals and looking forward to the future whereas four years ago I felt the only thing in my future was death. I was pessimistic and didn't really care about anything because I felt certain all was going to go badly. Of course, when most of my life had gone badly up to that point it was easy to feel that way. Now, I can't pinpoint any exact moment of change but over the course of the past four years I've become optimistic. I've decided to not dwell on the things I can't change because it only brings me down. I'm working on changing the things in my life that I can control instead of moping about and letting things get worse. There's still room for improvement but I feel good about where I am at this point in my life.
I'm in a reflective mood. I suppose the journal entry might have given that away. What brought about this particular mood? Well, my birthday is next Thursday...it could be just a side effect of getting a little bit older.