zanafar

Thanks for the support
Alot of you asked why I think I have no chance though....so I'll explain. Just remember that you guys asked
So here is the condensed version of my entire romantic life in all its pathetic glory (some of you may have heard all this before...but Im really depressed right now and need to vent)

First you guys need to know how I grew up.
My mom had alot of dogs (like 20). She cared more about them then her kids...and they most of them lived in our very small house. And none were house trained....mom never bothered and when anyone else tried she would burst into tears about how she was afraid they would run away. So the first 18 years of my life I lived in dog shit. Which resulted in me smelling like dog shit. which resulted in VERY few friends through out school. Which resulted in me always being down and walking with my head down. Which resulted in a very badly curved spine. If Im not careful I really do look like a hunchback Anyway....all this is why I had no friends let alone any girl friends.....and why I never really developed any social skills(to this day I cant hold a conversation very well)

The first lil humilation came from a girl I worked with on my summer job. I asked her out and she said yeah sure....but my timing was bad and she had to leave right then...so we agreed to set up a date the next day. She never came back to work....never saw her again

Soooo.....fast foward to Senior prom. Wasnt going to go. Then a very cute girl who I had been crushing on asked me . Turns out though that she only used me to get there....she was a junior....and at my school juniors could go if with seniors. She ignored me the whole night.....and it was by pure luck that I saw her as I was coming out of the bathroom.....leaving with some other guy. We never even danced......

Couple monthes later....not long after graduation....my brother and his wife were having trouble ...and he left her. I guess she was hurt or felt sorry for me or was just horny.....but the end result of that was that I lost my virginity to my brothers wife (NOT something Im really proud of...but it happened. Do me a fav though and spare me the west virgina jokes...Im simply not in the mood)

Not long after that....I was in the army....finally out of that damn house. Still didnt meet anyone for a while though...ironicly not til I went home on leave. Met this girl...took her out on what was honestly the most romantic night of my life (so I like that stuff.....guys are allowed to arent they?) had the most phenominial sex EVER ! I was really in love even though I only knew her for a while. Day before I left she told me she was moving in with her boyfriend (not me.....just so you know)

Back in the army. In Germany.....pulling gate guard. I met this girl.....she seemed pretty cool. Asked her out to go see a movie. She said yes and we met that night in a pub. Instead of a movie though we just sat there and talked. It was all going well and at the end of the night we were parting ways...so we set a date for another time for the movie. At this point she asks if her boyfriend can come too

Met another German girl on a differnt guard duty. I REALLY liked her...and was trying to win her over for the entire month I was in the area. We never went past the friend stage...and not very good friends at that. The Sergant that was with us in the guard duty on the other hand? Oh....she fucked him the same night they met

Again in Germany. I met an army girl. We hit it off pretty well and dated for a few monthes in fact. But even I could tell it wasnt going to work....I am a VERY affectionate person and always want some sort of phyisical contact...and she was the exact oppisite. She hated to be touched. And she had a real annoying habit of comparing me to a attention starved dog she used to have. Even though I know it wasnt going to work though....it still hurt like hell when she told me it was over. She did this a few days before I left for Iraq

Then.....it was discovered that I have genital warts. It doesnt really do anything...but its still not very attractive So not only are my already very small chances with any woman majorly cut even more (ladies....be honest....even if you met a great guy that you really liked...if you found out that he had that you would want to keep at just friends wouldnt you?) but now I got to live with the fact that I likely spread it around a lil bit. (arent you all just so proud to be friends with me now )

And thats about it. 6 girls who decided I wasnt good enough....
about a million who wouldnt give me the time of day.....
A few fucked up things I shouldnt have done (maybe I dont even deserve what it is I seek).......
A hunched back.......
No social skills.....
And one STD

You guys understand why I dont think I have a chance now?


I exposed some embarrassing stuff in my entry. And some of this Im not proud of. Id understand if my friends list is considerably shorter tomorrow....and I wont blame you and I wont beg you to come back...I'll respect that choice. If you do decide that you dont want to be my friend anymore.....thank you for hanging with me when you did. I apperciated it alot.

Now if you excuse me.....Im going to go cry myself to sleep