TIME TO FUCKING VENT
Pass on if you aren't up to hear me rant for a moment...
Arrogance... arrogance is such a false sense of strength. It tends to be a mask to a persons fears and weakness's... but isn't that what makes us human? What the FUCK is wrong with being human. ARROGANCE is one of the major things that just grinds me to the core. It's even worse that when I point it out to individuals it comes back to me in forms such as "You're being too sensitive", "I'm joking", or "I don't fuck around" kind of comments. It really makes the hair at the back of my neck stand up and want to put them in their humble place again. Is that the right thing to do? Hell no. But it is the way I feel though I don't do it, I try to be as reserved as possible.
So here is my fucking guff... I recently was added into a new group that supposedly has a pretty tight entrance "though it really didn't seem tight because there was no vouching for me or any questions to me at all". One of the members thought that in fun conversation (outside of the site, phone call) that they would say that I wouldn't even be in the group if they didn't want me there... this same person has said similar "I have status" comments in the past that I just overlook (though they got to me the whole time, I just have a fucking Humble pie ignitor or something in me, lol). So I couldn't hold back the grit anymore and just had to say "wow thats impressive" kind of comments (not too sure exaclty what I did say in the moment) but they were cynical and noticeable... ANYWAYS from there we somehow got on the subject that this person could TOTALLY get me kicked off the site in a heart beat for no reason whatsoever. That they were friends with the big guys in charge.
AT THIS POINT I AM AT MY LIMIT. 1) I know this is a fucking business though this individual very well pointed out to me that they could care less about my $60 a year(very true maybe but still defeats the purpose of good business) 2) I stated that if the individual that has that power also probably has the good conscious to not just go zotting individuals just because someone told them to (without doing their research at least). At that second comment I was laughed at. Yeah so far does this sound like someone you really want to be talking to in the first place? Not me yet I couldn't help but explain myself and tell them of the offense that I am taking with their tone and their comments. As well as egging them on to go ahead and try to get me kicked if they want to.
To that they answer "But I dont want you kicked off". Right now the first thought in my head is "WHY WOULD YOU BOTHER TALKING TO SOMEONE THIS WAY". Its disrespectful to anyone, just seems to be a dish on common decency. Then they ask why I would want to be kicked off? Im like Because I really don't think that can happen. I just put my trust that the system works better than that but if it is so, and I get booted then its really not something I would want to support in the first place.
Anyways in the end this really has NOTHING to do with SG at all and they shouldnt even really be in the picture. Its about arrogance. Not just the individual in context but arrogance in general. Why is humility/humbleness such a bad trait? Its not at all. People might say that arrogance in small amounts is ok, but I would suggest that the word would be confidence not arrogance. Arrogance is a devious mutation of confidence, confidence does not boast or gloat for it knows what it is and where it stands. Arrogance is a mask worn to conceil something else.
I guess the reason it makes me so pissed is because of what it hides... could be many things but one of which stands out the most is lack of self strength and confidence. Arrogance puts others down in order to raise itself up, it plays and searches for the weaknesses of others to strengthen itself... its always at battle with something and never knows peace. Its hard to think that a person can live with that on themselves... I guess I would rather just see that person 1) admit their weaknesses (because I believe thats when you are strongest) and 2) have the right group of people around them to help build them up and give them back the strength they need in themselves.
Dont worry about who I am speaking about. Its really not worth it, and hopefully they arent really reading this or allowing it to cause them more pain then they may already be dealing with.
OK I think Im done venting... yeah I sound preachy blah blah blah.... Fuck it. Its out of my system lol.
Time to blaze some "fuck that shit" beats to get it out of my system.
JP
Pass on if you aren't up to hear me rant for a moment...
Arrogance... arrogance is such a false sense of strength. It tends to be a mask to a persons fears and weakness's... but isn't that what makes us human? What the FUCK is wrong with being human. ARROGANCE is one of the major things that just grinds me to the core. It's even worse that when I point it out to individuals it comes back to me in forms such as "You're being too sensitive", "I'm joking", or "I don't fuck around" kind of comments. It really makes the hair at the back of my neck stand up and want to put them in their humble place again. Is that the right thing to do? Hell no. But it is the way I feel though I don't do it, I try to be as reserved as possible.
So here is my fucking guff... I recently was added into a new group that supposedly has a pretty tight entrance "though it really didn't seem tight because there was no vouching for me or any questions to me at all". One of the members thought that in fun conversation (outside of the site, phone call) that they would say that I wouldn't even be in the group if they didn't want me there... this same person has said similar "I have status" comments in the past that I just overlook (though they got to me the whole time, I just have a fucking Humble pie ignitor or something in me, lol). So I couldn't hold back the grit anymore and just had to say "wow thats impressive" kind of comments (not too sure exaclty what I did say in the moment) but they were cynical and noticeable... ANYWAYS from there we somehow got on the subject that this person could TOTALLY get me kicked off the site in a heart beat for no reason whatsoever. That they were friends with the big guys in charge.
AT THIS POINT I AM AT MY LIMIT. 1) I know this is a fucking business though this individual very well pointed out to me that they could care less about my $60 a year(very true maybe but still defeats the purpose of good business) 2) I stated that if the individual that has that power also probably has the good conscious to not just go zotting individuals just because someone told them to (without doing their research at least). At that second comment I was laughed at. Yeah so far does this sound like someone you really want to be talking to in the first place? Not me yet I couldn't help but explain myself and tell them of the offense that I am taking with their tone and their comments. As well as egging them on to go ahead and try to get me kicked if they want to.
To that they answer "But I dont want you kicked off". Right now the first thought in my head is "WHY WOULD YOU BOTHER TALKING TO SOMEONE THIS WAY". Its disrespectful to anyone, just seems to be a dish on common decency. Then they ask why I would want to be kicked off? Im like Because I really don't think that can happen. I just put my trust that the system works better than that but if it is so, and I get booted then its really not something I would want to support in the first place.
Anyways in the end this really has NOTHING to do with SG at all and they shouldnt even really be in the picture. Its about arrogance. Not just the individual in context but arrogance in general. Why is humility/humbleness such a bad trait? Its not at all. People might say that arrogance in small amounts is ok, but I would suggest that the word would be confidence not arrogance. Arrogance is a devious mutation of confidence, confidence does not boast or gloat for it knows what it is and where it stands. Arrogance is a mask worn to conceil something else.
I guess the reason it makes me so pissed is because of what it hides... could be many things but one of which stands out the most is lack of self strength and confidence. Arrogance puts others down in order to raise itself up, it plays and searches for the weaknesses of others to strengthen itself... its always at battle with something and never knows peace. Its hard to think that a person can live with that on themselves... I guess I would rather just see that person 1) admit their weaknesses (because I believe thats when you are strongest) and 2) have the right group of people around them to help build them up and give them back the strength they need in themselves.
Dont worry about who I am speaking about. Its really not worth it, and hopefully they arent really reading this or allowing it to cause them more pain then they may already be dealing with.
OK I think Im done venting... yeah I sound preachy blah blah blah.... Fuck it. Its out of my system lol.
Time to blaze some "fuck that shit" beats to get it out of my system.
JP
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and as for tuesday, i can tell you a lifetime of reasons why she is amazing herself.
i hate people who need to feel better about their shitty little lives by playing internet nazi.these people have way too much time on their hands.