zak0007

I havent been nominated by anyone to do this but I thought it would be fun to join in.

1) Height - 186cm

2) Virgin - Not for a long while

3) Do you smoke - weed once in awhile

4) Do you drink - More than I probably should but it is something I'm trying to address

5) Age you get mistaken for -...
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Holy shit I'm a dad now and man does it feel good!

Earlier today I learned the reason why a coworker wasn't in on Friday. Normally something that mundane doesn't really pique interest or curiosity but he's one of those workers that doesn't take a lot of days off unexpectedly. So earlier today he posted on Facebook that his son had committed suicide. In his post he went into detail how his son struggled with substance abuse...
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Alright so I have a plan in the works to help with a few things. Going to start eating better, cut back on drinking, and start working out again. My oldest sister is now a Nutritionist so she's going to help me out on the nutrition side of things. Every thing else is up to me I've pushed through worse days so I think I...
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...just need a solution now. Well the problem is chronic depression. In the past I used to work out all the time to help combat it but nowadays I don't quite have the energy for it. Also it's a bit of a trick to motivate oneself to do it. Once upon a time I was in amazing shape and the endorphin rush got me through...
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Well as the title suggests I'm having an off day. For those that are following along I use the blog here as more of a journal. I find it helps take some weight off my chest. As stated in my last blog I am happy in terms of my career choices and work in general is enjoyable. Can't help but feel like I'm missing something...
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As per usual I've been away for awhile. This time in much better spirits though. Just to recap the year before. Lost 3 family members, ended a 3 year relationship, changed careers, and had to sell the house I spent my entire adult life saving for. Was a lot to endure at one time. Pretty much went through a personal hell, was chronically depressed and...
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Not going to say much right now but it's been months once again since my last post. Life has been, well...let's just say when people ask how I'm doing I just respond with a shake of my head and laugh. Some what numb to the world but I haven't lost hope yet.

Not going to say much right now but it's been months once again since my last post. Life has been, well...let's just say when people ask how I'm doing I just respond with a shake of my head and laugh. Some what numb to the world but I haven't lost hope yet.

The one we keep around our hearts. My cousin has lost her battle with cancer. Since then I've not been the same, it's a feeling that's hard to describe but I'm sure many out there have felt or are currently feeling. Lately the only way I've been able to open up about how I've felt is while severely inebriated. I don't know why I can't...
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As per usual it's a long time since my last visit. Life hasn't gotten any easier although if it was easy then I suppose it would defeat it's purpose. I bought a house, which in itself is a stressful enough process on top of that I'm looking at a career change in the near future. That'll set me back financially for a few years but...
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So I've been away from this site for a long while now. Figure it's about time I fired off an update. For the most part life is...well honestly...mediocre. Still working my ass off for pennies and now my boss has sold the business and I have about a month to figure out what the hell my next move is. Either I stay and likely get...
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