zahra

Things are obviously pretty stressful right now in my life with the shooting of my set (exciting, but I do admit to nervousness), graduation, prom, work, blah blah blahhhh.

I want so badly to be able to quit smoking butts. I feel weak and pathetic and I know I'm the only one who can change that. I have no right to complain because what it comes down to is a choice. Cigarettes are more than just one addiction and right now I feel unable to deal with that problem. I can't shake it. The worst part is I feel disgusting - I keep thinking about how I'm actually killing myself (when we make that decision, all you smokers out there, it really is that dangerous). It is so weird how my body can be repulsed by what my mind craves. The only thing my body loves is the taste (weird too..).

Pointless entry. Today Thea and I went to the mall to see the puppies and stopped by a carnival. We got ripped off by the damn carnies. They can be so enticing. Then we played with a fluffy Old English and the cutest little beagle I think I've ever, and will ever, see. We considered pooling our money but in the end it wasn't a good idea. I love animals, which is becoming more and more apparent to me over the years. I really want to help the monkies in Africa.